"Why do you keep loving me? I haven't done anything good so why do you love me???"

"Because you're my number one! You have been since the day we met and you will be until the day i die. I don't know why, but that's the way it is and no matter what i do I always end up thining about you again. I chose you without even realizing it. I love you and I thought you loved me too and i fell without realizing my feet left the ground and now its too fucking late. you always come first. after everything, you are still my number one. I know what it happening now, but I cant forget what happened then."

"but i have hurt you so many times."

"but you helped me so many more times before that."

"I ignored you for a year!"

"Why????"

"There isn't a reason. It was me. you never did anything but love me and I left you."

"i know. I know that, but i still lie awake at night trying to figure out what I did wrong!"

"You didnt do anything!"

"then why did you leave???"

"I don't fucking know, okay? I don't know."

"i know you're struggling. and i told you i was here. and i never stopped being here. "

"why?"

"because I love you."

"You can't wait forever."

"yet somehow I will anyway. because anytime you come around, no matter how many years passed, i still remember the feeling I got whe sitting next to you."

"I hurt you . . ."

"and I loved you."







Here is my inner dialogue- i know its not good but it helped me get a feeling out so here you go xD