I was lost, drowning, defeated and in pain. Didn't know how to save myself, I didn't want to. My subconscious mind was crowded, and only portrayed one emotion "SADNESS".
My PAST caught up to me. Every time I was disappointed, heartbroken in my life, kept playing over and over in my head along with strong emotions like it just happened. I taught that I had dealt with these issues. But it turned out I just hid it away, put up a wall, a disguise.
Couldn't control myself, felt like my subconscious was attacking me. My brain tricking me into thinking I can't breathe, crying myself to sleep became normal. I was afraid to be home alone. The emotional stress was worst than the physical pain.
© Miss DANIEL