I am falling into the darkness. I don't recall when it happened or precisely how it happened but all I know is I am laying on my bed, wondering how far gone I am.

I was a good girl; I AM a good girl.

But somehow I have lost myself, someway, somehow. I was getting better, I really was, I was getting saved. He was saving me but I let him go. I dared to allow distance creep between us and now I am scrambling, begging, looking for scraps of His mercy and kindness and love to redeem me but all I hear is silence.

I...