The train was empty it was just me Bruce and Devin. Bruce driving gave us a chance to talk. In my head I wanted to believe that Devin had special feeling for me. Facts were I was throwing myself at him being too available for him. I was talking to him telling him these things. The fact is Devin I wanted things to be more than they really are. For the first time in 13 years my heart was wide open. I love you and I was willing and wanted to love you all the way. I...