I feel my lips burning,my hands shaking but what! How can I ? Feel sweet????

I'm chocolates all over and now I feel I'll be in love noo..I feel like it all has happened sometime...
Despite of all those devilish things,criminal acts and cruel things he did with me ,how can I love him? I heard footsteps in the corridor and vigorous knocks on my door !
I know it's him!! I won't open up ,now he has crossed everything.. ah ! I'm so confused , I can't bear the...