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My Life Dairy part 2
Dear Diary, there are lot of things to talk about. You know I don't really know what thing should I start with. The order surely will be in mess cause I dont know whether I will get free time like present so I am writing whatever comes to my mind. Hahaaaa.....By the way I am listening to a song SAWARE by Arijit singh sir and I remember another thing do you know. When I was in class 9th a boy proposed to me.Hahaaa I am blushing and smiling right now. I was studying in a private school till 8th and then transferred to that government high school.The shift from private to government school. And as you know it takes time to make friends and feel more comfortable when one transfers to a new school. And I swear I was like scared cause when I entered that high school the students were all having morning assembly. I placed my bag in my class. And joined the assembly, everyone was looking at me and talking to each other about me and hahaaa I was more and more scared. My heart was full of fear. And one the most interesting thing about me is that my friend from that private school was also admitted to that high school. And he was quite popular among the girls. He was Secretary of that high school and we had a great time in our private school. But to my surprise he didn't even talk to me for 5 days I guess and acted as if he never knew me. Yes I was sad inside but I had a hope that one day we will be friends again cause I thought he might not have seen me even though he saw me with his new friends. Hahaaa positive me. My one of the good quality is that I make friends very fast just like my mother. The private schools make you more open and frank and so was I. During the first day Our science teacher asked a question " Define tissue" to the whole class and I was the only one who answered it. I answered the question by looking at the book hahaaa cheating Everyone looked at me wow she knows the answer. The teacher was unpredictable and he said no I want more detailed definition. I was a excellent student I always used to be 2nd topper And till now I always have more than 87% in every exams. Being a good student I used to get teachers attention and became favorite of every teacher. All the students became my friends cause I helped them a lot and teachers used to listen to me. And I became popular girl in that whole high school. I never bullied others even though there were girls who were not accepting to digest the way every teacher treated me and had minor conflicts with me but at the end they had to digest me cause I was not the whiskey they wanted, I was the water they needed. I helped them all the time. And yaaa I forgot one thing during I guess 6th or 7 th day of my college when our mathematics teacher came in our class to discuss about a form and to fill it something like that. We were up and talking with him and suddenly I turned my neck left and I saw a boy staring at me. I was like omg where should I hide. Why is he staring at me. I don't even know him. I swear he was starting for more than half an hour. And the next day when I saw him he looked the same way, and on and on, whenever I looked at him he would have been already looking at him. Me and my classmate we were walking and he called her cause they were related to each other. He was talking with him and looking at me. I was so scared that I don't wanted to tke the path where he was. And i gues this cycle of gazing continued for more than 20 days. And finally he proposed to me. He was one year senior to me. He asked the above mentioned girl from my class and confessed his feelings. Heheee....And i acted as if I was a thief who was caught red handed. Omg that day I can't forget. And you know what, idiot me I first said yes to him and then after some days I said no to him through that girl. I was afraid what if my parents found this they will kick me out hahaaa. I never talked face to face with him and neither did he.
When I said yes to him. I don't know suddenly all that fear that I had in my heart vanished, that me who was scared a little bit inside suddenly became bold and free. I don't know how, but that surely was something magical. I don't know how but suddenly everyone got to know that I am talking to that senior boy. May be it was that girl who was a link between we two. She told everyone and as a result everyone started talking about us. I was afraid that what if my parents got to know they will really punish me and may be they won't let me go to school again, And next day my father said I saw a dream as if I my cap was drowning in the river . My mother narrated that seeing cap getting drowned means ones respect is going to drown. I was more afraid hahaaa And the first thing I did was to say No to that boy. And i said No through that girl. And I told everyone that I don't have any affair with that head boy.
Now I could take a breath of relief. And the boy Aww he said to that girl can she talk to me what happened. And I asked a new girl and said her to tell that boy I never said yes and I want to focus on my studies because in future I have to take medical, I have to study, and My parents are strict, And I have never said yes. Hahaaa I am a pretty liar.
Dear dairy don't get confused the whole thing like saying yes to No happened in I guess 7 or 10 days. Like I said yes and 7 days passed I said No. Haaahaaa.. The senior boy used another boy but I said no again and used another girl and I said no again. That was the story of my first proposal.
And you know what that senior boy he had told to all the girls of her class that when they asked him what is so special about him, you have never seen her, her face is always covered you never saw her and then he replied that just look in his eyes she has got the most beautiful eyes. And yaaa it is kind of ture cause my all female friends even right now they say when we first saw you, your eyes caught us. Being females they say you have beautiful eyes. Girls complementing girls I hope you know it is rare. Hahaaaa to my surprise I am listening Maula mere maulana right now and it is raining. I am not praising myself but thanks to Almighty I have been blessed with beautiful eyes. I don't have mascara or any other makeup stuff. All thanks to Almighty. And yaaa then the girl of his class called me and closed the door, Hai show us your face we want to see you, I made an excuse and left. Then when I was coming out they said he was right you have beautiful eyes. I didn't understand that time like whether I have beautiful eyes or not how ironic, I thought they were lying.
And you know when I said No to him the other day after persuading so much he used a trick he told one of the girls of my class that he is transferring to another high school and I swear I was restless the whole day. My heart was sad inside and I swear I said 3 to 4 times to that girl why will he transfer, when will he be back etc and the other day when it was our lunch time he was talking with one of his friend and looking at me I remember so clearly and there were other boys too, one of the teacher took stick and everyone rushed back to ground and he was still there and he didn't moved. The teacher scolded him and with that stuck he dabbed his legs 4 times and all he did was standing there still. I swear I was like I could take the stick away from that teacher and sit next to that senior boy and tell him I am with you. He didn't cried and I could do was to secretly look at him. And one day when I and our classmates were talking with headmaster he came there and was standing opposite to me, his gaze and i was dead hahaaa my heart was about to explode I swear. And one more, önce we had quiz competition, when I standed he was continuously looking at me and that cheered me and like really how happy I was even though all these incidents happened after I said No but still something was there. What was that could you say?. I know In this story I am the bad character but I was scared of my parents more than anything else and what was I, nothing. I couldn't take stand for myself like the way they do in movies and dramas. I was just a 9th standard girl. What if my parents could have found that time, I know my school would have been banned cause my parents are most strict I know, And I being the elder one in family if I did something like that what message would that have had for my brothers. Sometimes you have to use your mind and say goodbye to love because you need to be more mature cause they say you get experience at some coast. So here it was the love. I had to sacrifice it and think broad mindedly that I have a life to live on, my parents to make proud, people to help, poor to help and many more and that was in 2018 and look today is 2024 so many things have changed.
And you know some girls told me that he had a girlfriend who was one year senior to him and broke with her I don't know why but they broke up when I came to that school. She was studing in another higher secondary by that time. I thought that time if he could break up with her girlfriend due to me then he can break with me too when someone new comes. But it is just a baseless reason for me I don't believe it. Because they say" You may be with someone but in future you will get to know was not right untill someone new comes'". May be if I could have been with him I could have been the right person. But anyways let bygones be bygones. Haaahaaa.... You know what I could proudly say I was also in love with him may be it is because You know that time in 2018 I didn't had mobile phone, I never talked to him, he never saw my face, we never talked face to face, I never got to know him nor did he. But the hidden care, the affection what was that. I really miss him a lot. I have seen so many boys who are more handsome than him but still he is in my mind. I whish I be a best docotor and then I will meet him and treat him may be a meal or a cup of tea or whatever he wants to have and then talk with him. That's a whish in my heart. Hahaaaa don't laugh at me. But I will say "I was not a cheater, I had my reasons to say No".
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When I said yes to him. I don't know suddenly all that fear that I had in my heart vanished, that me who was scared a little bit inside suddenly became bold and free. I don't know how, but that surely was something magical. I don't know how but suddenly everyone got to know that I am talking to that senior boy. May be it was that girl who was a link between we two. She told everyone and as a result everyone started talking about us. I was afraid that what if my parents got to know they will really punish me and may be they won't let me go to school again, And next day my father said I saw a dream as if I my cap was drowning in the river . My mother narrated that seeing cap getting drowned means ones respect is going to drown. I was more afraid hahaaa And the first thing I did was to say No to that boy. And i said No through that girl. And I told everyone that I don't have any affair with that head boy.
Now I could take a breath of relief. And the boy Aww he said to that girl can she talk to me what happened. And I asked a new girl and said her to tell that boy I never said yes and I want to focus on my studies because in future I have to take medical, I have to study, and My parents are strict, And I have never said yes. Hahaaa I am a pretty liar.
Dear dairy don't get confused the whole thing like saying yes to No happened in I guess 7 or 10 days. Like I said yes and 7 days passed I said No. Haaahaaa.. The senior boy used another boy but I said no again and used another girl and I said no again. That was the story of my first proposal.
And you know what that senior boy he had told to all the girls of her class that when they asked him what is so special about him, you have never seen her, her face is always covered you never saw her and then he replied that just look in his eyes she has got the most beautiful eyes. And yaaa it is kind of ture cause my all female friends even right now they say when we first saw you, your eyes caught us. Being females they say you have beautiful eyes. Girls complementing girls I hope you know it is rare. Hahaaaa to my surprise I am listening Maula mere maulana right now and it is raining. I am not praising myself but thanks to Almighty I have been blessed with beautiful eyes. I don't have mascara or any other makeup stuff. All thanks to Almighty. And yaaa then the girl of his class called me and closed the door, Hai show us your face we want to see you, I made an excuse and left. Then when I was coming out they said he was right you have beautiful eyes. I didn't understand that time like whether I have beautiful eyes or not how ironic, I thought they were lying.
And you know when I said No to him the other day after persuading so much he used a trick he told one of the girls of my class that he is transferring to another high school and I swear I was restless the whole day. My heart was sad inside and I swear I said 3 to 4 times to that girl why will he transfer, when will he be back etc and the other day when it was our lunch time he was talking with one of his friend and looking at me I remember so clearly and there were other boys too, one of the teacher took stick and everyone rushed back to ground and he was still there and he didn't moved. The teacher scolded him and with that stuck he dabbed his legs 4 times and all he did was standing there still. I swear I was like I could take the stick away from that teacher and sit next to that senior boy and tell him I am with you. He didn't cried and I could do was to secretly look at him. And one day when I and our classmates were talking with headmaster he came there and was standing opposite to me, his gaze and i was dead hahaaa my heart was about to explode I swear. And one more, önce we had quiz competition, when I standed he was continuously looking at me and that cheered me and like really how happy I was even though all these incidents happened after I said No but still something was there. What was that could you say?. I know In this story I am the bad character but I was scared of my parents more than anything else and what was I, nothing. I couldn't take stand for myself like the way they do in movies and dramas. I was just a 9th standard girl. What if my parents could have found that time, I know my school would have been banned cause my parents are most strict I know, And I being the elder one in family if I did something like that what message would that have had for my brothers. Sometimes you have to use your mind and say goodbye to love because you need to be more mature cause they say you get experience at some coast. So here it was the love. I had to sacrifice it and think broad mindedly that I have a life to live on, my parents to make proud, people to help, poor to help and many more and that was in 2018 and look today is 2024 so many things have changed.
And you know some girls told me that he had a girlfriend who was one year senior to him and broke with her I don't know why but they broke up when I came to that school. She was studing in another higher secondary by that time. I thought that time if he could break up with her girlfriend due to me then he can break with me too when someone new comes. But it is just a baseless reason for me I don't believe it. Because they say" You may be with someone but in future you will get to know was not right untill someone new comes'". May be if I could have been with him I could have been the right person. But anyways let bygones be bygones. Haaahaaa.... You know what I could proudly say I was also in love with him may be it is because You know that time in 2018 I didn't had mobile phone, I never talked to him, he never saw my face, we never talked face to face, I never got to know him nor did he. But the hidden care, the affection what was that. I really miss him a lot. I have seen so many boys who are more handsome than him but still he is in my mind. I whish I be a best docotor and then I will meet him and treat him may be a meal or a cup of tea or whatever he wants to have and then talk with him. That's a whish in my heart. Hahaaaa don't laugh at me. But I will say "I was not a cheater, I had my reasons to say No".
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