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The Daily Dose
The daily dose of the depressionist.
I will do this everyday!
I want to get better at writing even if that means just writing to write, but those that know me know that I don’t write to write!
I write to feel.
I write to tell a story through my emotions and take you on a journey you will never forget.
now come and sit with me.
just for a moment while I tell you my worry’s of the day.
I’m sitting drinking my second coffee!
this coffee was ten dollars but I didn’t care because I told the coffee man to surprise me!
and as I stare out the window of Starbucks I find myself just trying to enjoy the moment.. because
moments like this hurt when you are all alone.. and I’m trying not to hurt right now.
i do like to sit and think though.
because when I do I normally learn something.
like who the guy next to me might be?
or why everyone else is in this coffee shop with me?
or am I the only real person in the room?
but it doesn’t matter because all of those thoughts are just a distraction from what I really want to consider.
I think I’m running from myself and avoiding who I really am.
I feel angry at myself because I can’t seem to enjoy the beautiful sun outside,
I can’t seem to find peace right now.
and now that I think about it I think that that’s because I’m looking for it.
maybee looking for something makes it harder to find because I’m looking in the wrong areas… idk just a thought
I am still writing tho. I’d give up everything just to write. I love it more than most things.
I wish I knew everything was going to be alright. that something I think about a lot.
but life doesn’t hand out promises of a better tomorrow. it’s up to me I think. and I really do want to be better! I want to change the world with words and I know that’s a big feat but what isn’t when it come to makeing a difference.
what was once dreamed of and seemingly impossible someone eventually came along and did it!
so why can’t that be me.
am I not worthy of makeing a difference, am I not doing enough to deserve such a thing.
Do I have to sacrifice MORE of myself? because I’ll do it!
maybee I’m trying to hard to change the world around me and maybee I just need to accept it for what it is.
it’s nice here.
I’m surround by people all enjoying there own drinks and living there own lives. and none of them even know me for me.
they don’t know I’m sitting in the middle of the room writing about them!
the old guy out the window with a limp and a pistol on his hip, carrying 2 coffees I assume one is for his wife! the guy next to me on his tablet with a small drink that he’s only took 1 sip of. I think it’s a hot chocolate😅. no shame in a good hot chocolate. every new person that walks in looks beaten and tired and not a single on knows I’m watching their every move!
the birds dancing in the sunlight on the pavements directly infront of me out the window! it’s a thin glass and I wish it wasn’t in my way so I could throw them some food!
the birds just flew of and I’m glad they are having fun! I enjoying seeing these kind of things. you know!
the in the moment moments that only happen to be amazing if you are truly living in the moment.. I love the feeling I get from it!
the sun light just came back and I’m sure it’s shineing on someone that needs it. I need it but I’m happy being inside!
After all it is 100 degrees outside!
I’m 23 and I’m sitting in a coffee shop writing about how I feel😂 most people my age are out drinking and ruining there life’s without knowing it. I could be at the damn beach but that’s no fun to me!:)
But I’m just here. no friends. no family. no one but you guys that read this post. it’s you and me so I will tell you exactly how it is!
It is a little chilly but that’s because its hot outside and I’m sure it being cold in here brings more business! the coffee shop shift is changing so all the employees are switching out! I’m sitting up straight in my chair looking down at my phone with a questionable face! as if I’m also trying to figure out what the hell is going on here!
I have my coffee to my left at arms reach! the table I’m leaning on with both arms is brown and a little dirty because it’s been use a lot! I’m sure each dent on this table has a story of its own!
I laughed to myself because I just tried to make another dent so I could be apart of its story too , it didn’t work but it’s a tuff table so I’m not upset! :) I’m happy I tried.
My coffee is so cold it has water drops forming in the outside and creating a puddle at the base! I took another drink and goddamn it’s very good ! you want to know what I’m drinking don’t you?:)
I asked them to chose for me so keep in mind that I have never had this drink before but here it is. it says 😂
Vt Ic Brsg Oat E!
Blonde Espresso ,
3 Pumps Brown Sugar Syrup,
2 Pumps White Mocha.
now I have NO CLUE what the fuck that first part means so maybe someone can help me out!
but it’s very good!
it tastes like cinnamon and sugar and has a very promenant milky taste to it! it’s nice.
I’m thankful for the small things like a coffee! I like being able to wipe the side of my cups and feel the cold on my fingers as I watch the cup fog up again!
I enjoy being able to sit here and appreciate the little thing as if they are all I live for. I tend to do that all the time because for me it’s the one thing that brings me peice of mind! knowing I can enjoy something so small, it makes everything else seem less scary in a way!
It makes me enjoy more things! It’s what makes me me! I’ve been here for an hour now and I have to get going!
I hope you enjoy this daily dose of me. I’ll be back tomorrow.
-The Depressionist
I will do this everyday!
I want to get better at writing even if that means just writing to write, but those that know me know that I don’t write to write!
I write to feel.
I write to tell a story through my emotions and take you on a journey you will never forget.
now come and sit with me.
just for a moment while I tell you my worry’s of the day.
I’m sitting drinking my second coffee!
this coffee was ten dollars but I didn’t care because I told the coffee man to surprise me!
and as I stare out the window of Starbucks I find myself just trying to enjoy the moment.. because
moments like this hurt when you are all alone.. and I’m trying not to hurt right now.
i do like to sit and think though.
because when I do I normally learn something.
like who the guy next to me might be?
or why everyone else is in this coffee shop with me?
or am I the only real person in the room?
but it doesn’t matter because all of those thoughts are just a distraction from what I really want to consider.
I think I’m running from myself and avoiding who I really am.
I feel angry at myself because I can’t seem to enjoy the beautiful sun outside,
I can’t seem to find peace right now.
and now that I think about it I think that that’s because I’m looking for it.
maybee looking for something makes it harder to find because I’m looking in the wrong areas… idk just a thought
I am still writing tho. I’d give up everything just to write. I love it more than most things.
I wish I knew everything was going to be alright. that something I think about a lot.
but life doesn’t hand out promises of a better tomorrow. it’s up to me I think. and I really do want to be better! I want to change the world with words and I know that’s a big feat but what isn’t when it come to makeing a difference.
what was once dreamed of and seemingly impossible someone eventually came along and did it!
so why can’t that be me.
am I not worthy of makeing a difference, am I not doing enough to deserve such a thing.
Do I have to sacrifice MORE of myself? because I’ll do it!
maybee I’m trying to hard to change the world around me and maybee I just need to accept it for what it is.
it’s nice here.
I’m surround by people all enjoying there own drinks and living there own lives. and none of them even know me for me.
they don’t know I’m sitting in the middle of the room writing about them!
the old guy out the window with a limp and a pistol on his hip, carrying 2 coffees I assume one is for his wife! the guy next to me on his tablet with a small drink that he’s only took 1 sip of. I think it’s a hot chocolate😅. no shame in a good hot chocolate. every new person that walks in looks beaten and tired and not a single on knows I’m watching their every move!
the birds dancing in the sunlight on the pavements directly infront of me out the window! it’s a thin glass and I wish it wasn’t in my way so I could throw them some food!
the birds just flew of and I’m glad they are having fun! I enjoying seeing these kind of things. you know!
the in the moment moments that only happen to be amazing if you are truly living in the moment.. I love the feeling I get from it!
the sun light just came back and I’m sure it’s shineing on someone that needs it. I need it but I’m happy being inside!
After all it is 100 degrees outside!
I’m 23 and I’m sitting in a coffee shop writing about how I feel😂 most people my age are out drinking and ruining there life’s without knowing it. I could be at the damn beach but that’s no fun to me!:)
But I’m just here. no friends. no family. no one but you guys that read this post. it’s you and me so I will tell you exactly how it is!
It is a little chilly but that’s because its hot outside and I’m sure it being cold in here brings more business! the coffee shop shift is changing so all the employees are switching out! I’m sitting up straight in my chair looking down at my phone with a questionable face! as if I’m also trying to figure out what the hell is going on here!
I have my coffee to my left at arms reach! the table I’m leaning on with both arms is brown and a little dirty because it’s been use a lot! I’m sure each dent on this table has a story of its own!
I laughed to myself because I just tried to make another dent so I could be apart of its story too , it didn’t work but it’s a tuff table so I’m not upset! :) I’m happy I tried.
My coffee is so cold it has water drops forming in the outside and creating a puddle at the base! I took another drink and goddamn it’s very good ! you want to know what I’m drinking don’t you?:)
I asked them to chose for me so keep in mind that I have never had this drink before but here it is. it says 😂
Vt Ic Brsg Oat E!
Blonde Espresso ,
3 Pumps Brown Sugar Syrup,
2 Pumps White Mocha.
now I have NO CLUE what the fuck that first part means so maybe someone can help me out!
but it’s very good!
it tastes like cinnamon and sugar and has a very promenant milky taste to it! it’s nice.
I’m thankful for the small things like a coffee! I like being able to wipe the side of my cups and feel the cold on my fingers as I watch the cup fog up again!
I enjoy being able to sit here and appreciate the little thing as if they are all I live for. I tend to do that all the time because for me it’s the one thing that brings me peice of mind! knowing I can enjoy something so small, it makes everything else seem less scary in a way!
It makes me enjoy more things! It’s what makes me me! I’ve been here for an hour now and I have to get going!
I hope you enjoy this daily dose of me. I’ll be back tomorrow.
-The Depressionist
