I begged someone to love me the way I loved them and that's the saddest thing I've ever done.
I killed myself that day to reborn again better.I was ashamed. Wanted to hide behind shadows,in the trees but couldn't. I tried to hug myself, my soul but it no longer liked me. I was feeling disgusted; yes to love him. yes to beg him. I hated myself for the person who was once the greatest thing I ever had. I thanked God to have him. Maybe that's why God decided to show me his truth and tell me he is not the one he made for me. Today after a long time I was able to see straight into my eyes. I no longer take pain for others and from others. My Mother.. Father... ohh.. I don't want to say about them; still I no longer want to prove myself to them. I don't want any new relationship.. whatever it is.. I treat people as they treat me. I no longer argue... I want peace.. and its funny how people try to make me react to flush out their traumas? I laugh on this.. I want to roam around in a forest.. then sit for sometime on a rock. Because right now I'm at rock bottom. I know I've taken alot of rest... but.. a little more would make me lazy and a little less will make me harsh on myself. I no more want to fulfill other's expectations.
— I'm tired yet full of life

© @Aayushi_Yadav
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