This feeling I have is indescribable, I mean I can explain it but it’s complicated. This person makes me smile, think about him a lot, misses him a lot, and just makes me smile. it’s been an emotional experience though. my feelings got involved, and when my feelings get involved it takes things to a whole different level. You see I’m a softy, my feelings get hurt easily, and when I’m lied too, talked about or anything my feelings come out & I get hurt…. Sometimes I say things I don’t mean and then it takes things to a whole different level too. What hurts me even more is that, that will never be any chance of us being together, and it’s complicated too say but we could never be together… and that’s what hurts even more…. I can’t express my feelings or problems with anyone…. the reason why is because people will judge or shame you, make fun of you and all the above. Really don’t have anytime for none of that. I have a lot going on as is…. it’s overwhelming at times…. but I’ve got this I’ve gone through so much in my life that I have no choice but too be strong and try and get over every obstacle that I can❤️