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Growth
#WritcoStoryPrompt60
Was there a point in your life that you wanted to stop, quit, and leave everything behind just to disappear to the point of changing and hiding your identity?
#storyprompt #inspiration #growth #lessons #heal
The universe is much more intricately and purposefully designed and laid out than I ever could have imagined. This is a realization I was forced to come to terms with recently as adversity came to challenge me. My life had finally reached the point that I no longer could foresee any hope for a brighter tomorrow. My life had just delivered me a humiliating blow that knocked me off my feet and I didn’t feel I was going to be strong enough to pull myself back up this time. All I wanted was to run and hide from my problems, hide from the world and never face anyone or any of my sad reality again.
My pathetic life these last few years just seemed to get harder and harder despite the efforts I made to improve myself and circumstances while remaining as positive as humanly possible. But it seemed that the more I tried to get things right, the more I seemed to ebb off course from the path of my dreams and more and more onto a path of self-destruction.
It began to dawn on me recently that maybe I just wasn’t destined for happiness. Maybe I would never come to live a harmonious lifestyle due to my inability to figure out how to navigate things properly. As sad as that was, it seemed as if I had little choice but to accept it because nothing that I’ve tried lately was working for me.
All I wanted was a normal life. One without constant worry, pain, and stress. It seemed as if that was asking too much though because I sure as hell couldn't seem to catch a break. My depression was at an all-time high, my home life was falling apart, my kids were out of control and seemed to hate me and my relationship was worse than it's ever been. Not to mention my enthusiasm for furthering my education (in hopes of obtaining a fulfilling career) had suddenly taken a nosedive and I was beginning to slack in my courses because I was losing interest. It wasn’t that I didn't want to finish earning my degree but my personal life was getting far too unmanageable which was starting to consume the entirety of my thoughts. With so much of my life to worry about and so much I needed to attempt to fix, I found that managing my time sufficiently had become a great deal harder.
So, with all of my struggles building up to the point of total exhaustion, I woke up today and decided I needed to take a little break since I had the day off. I decided to take a little hike in the woods near my house. I knew being in nature would help relieve some stress and so I decided to find a nice spot to sit and enjoy the sun as I painted for awhile. Painting was one of the creative outlets I used to get my mind off of things when I found myself becoming too overwhelmed with life's struggles. But as I was making my way to the woods, I stopped and checked the mail before I left.
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Was there a point in your life that you wanted to stop, quit, and leave everything behind just to disappear to the point of changing and hiding your identity?
#storyprompt #inspiration #growth #lessons #heal
The universe is much more intricately and purposefully designed and laid out than I ever could have imagined. This is a realization I was forced to come to terms with recently as adversity came to challenge me. My life had finally reached the point that I no longer could foresee any hope for a brighter tomorrow. My life had just delivered me a humiliating blow that knocked me off my feet and I didn’t feel I was going to be strong enough to pull myself back up this time. All I wanted was to run and hide from my problems, hide from the world and never face anyone or any of my sad reality again.
My pathetic life these last few years just seemed to get harder and harder despite the efforts I made to improve myself and circumstances while remaining as positive as humanly possible. But it seemed that the more I tried to get things right, the more I seemed to ebb off course from the path of my dreams and more and more onto a path of self-destruction.
It began to dawn on me recently that maybe I just wasn’t destined for happiness. Maybe I would never come to live a harmonious lifestyle due to my inability to figure out how to navigate things properly. As sad as that was, it seemed as if I had little choice but to accept it because nothing that I’ve tried lately was working for me.
All I wanted was a normal life. One without constant worry, pain, and stress. It seemed as if that was asking too much though because I sure as hell couldn't seem to catch a break. My depression was at an all-time high, my home life was falling apart, my kids were out of control and seemed to hate me and my relationship was worse than it's ever been. Not to mention my enthusiasm for furthering my education (in hopes of obtaining a fulfilling career) had suddenly taken a nosedive and I was beginning to slack in my courses because I was losing interest. It wasn’t that I didn't want to finish earning my degree but my personal life was getting far too unmanageable which was starting to consume the entirety of my thoughts. With so much of my life to worry about and so much I needed to attempt to fix, I found that managing my time sufficiently had become a great deal harder.
So, with all of my struggles building up to the point of total exhaustion, I woke up today and decided I needed to take a little break since I had the day off. I decided to take a little hike in the woods near my house. I knew being in nature would help relieve some stress and so I decided to find a nice spot to sit and enjoy the sun as I painted for awhile. Painting was one of the creative outlets I used to get my mind off of things when I found myself becoming too overwhelmed with life's struggles. But as I was making my way to the woods, I stopped and checked the mail before I left.
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