Maybe you just need to accept the fact that your not normal. True friendship doesn't exist on this side of Armageddon. your heart is incapable of accepting what it means to be a friend. Your ill balanced,

I realize that I'm not exactly normal. Most days I'm ok with it until it starts to affect other people. It's as if I have this emotional void that I'm constantly trying to fill.

But I'm not sure why I'm so fascinated with seemingly insignificant things.
I'm sure people think I'm strange
and perhaps even a little deranged
but it bothers me that people feel
my thoughts cannot be ascertained.

Today I realized how different I am in comparison to everyone else. Idk why I feel this way but I'm grateful I have the truth. I was feeling so alone this morning, and mad at myself. Trying to figure out why I seem to be so obsessed with certain things.

People do so much and accept so many different things. Yet my idiosyncrasies seem to be magnified and personified as completely unacceptable.
I thank Jehovah for being so patient with me. And understanding how I feel. I thank him for being so merciful.

I make mistakes both in word and deed and yet he continues forgiving me, each and every day, extending privileges to me which make me feel better. And helping me cope with my imperfections.

Sometimes I just want to go to the ocean to pray and not think about today. The mistakes I made, the people I hurt, and the thoughts I try to convey.
I give up. I need to give up. It's not worth trying anymore. I just need to accept that I'll always be unaccepted. The way I think, the way I feel, will always be intercepted.
With someone's opinion,
with someone's conscience,
With someone's immediate perception.

© JustAnotherInkling🎨