As reality, not just in my mind, but of the world around me dissipates into nothing but ash and ember. I feel the hot, heavy humidity in the wind as it carries everything I thought I knew away until I'm left standing without a home, body, name or even a soul to claim. Not knowing where to turn or who to trust, nothing to wrap my mind around, nothing but a dark void of confusion. Longing for the problems of yesterday. Where did it all go wrong? To even try to understand is such an obsolete concept. To try to have any thought, let alone any logical thoughts or awareness is a dangerous game to play. No longer able to stay a float. Only spiraling, just falling, faster and faster. Never finding solid ground, searching and reaching for anything to grab onto in complete darkness has made me desprate to the point of giving away my soul if offered. but there is nothing, no God, no Devil, no heaven, no hell. No place I belong no one to belong to. That feeling of your stomach abruptly falling and bursting no longer there. Only empty, just empty. Not able to imagine or dream or feel. Unable to even die. This is your eternity this is what it all lead to just falling forever, in the consequences of the life lived in a world of lies. You and everything you ever touched burning forever. Nothing but ash and ember. Forever.
© JasmineShockeyey