Chapter two

“its been long.. thought u had forgotten me..."I said when we were seated at a restaurant a little far from the library.
“no silly!!I couldn't...."he said rubbing my cheeks...u're the reason am successful today... remember that day at the bridge.?he asked
I could remember..it was three years ago...Milly (Sammy's sister)had told me he didn't sign up for the space program..he was scared of leaving everyone behind ....
“i tried to explain to him....tried to give him hope....but he wouldn't listen...Milly had said...I could see the pain in her eyes,she knew how Sammy loves space exploration and now was his but he was going to miss it because of his care for his family ....or maybe he just lost confidence in himself..
Laterthat day ..I had asked Sammy to meet me on the bridge...there was going to be a canoe race,alot of spectetors were present.... maybe he thought I wanted to watch the race with him....
“so about the space program...I had said when he had arrived and we were half way engrossed in the race.....
“i should had known that's why you called me ...u didn't like sport ..he said with a smirk .. I was going to wait till the registration date expires to tell you.. nothing is going to change my mind vera....he had said and for some reason I believed him but I had other plans ....
“oh!!save me the trouble..am not gonna try changing your mind...I had said
“and why is that??he had asked surprised and the next second regretting why he had asked...
“mybe u just lack confidence ...I said not looking at him...u're like an empty vase without no water ..no flower..
I can feel his gaze focused on me bewildered
“or maybe ure a loser....I continued
" Am not a loser vera!....
" Yes you are....
“am no..he wanted to say something but stopped...“ I know what ure trying to do vera...he had said smiling ..“but it ain't gonna work on me sugar "...he always called me that if he wanted to mock me...
“only a loser sees an opportunity he had long waited for stare him at the face nd he gives up ....trust me Sammy ...I had said now looking at him “I wouldn't want to waste my time on things without any hope and ambition ....I concluded and had left him on the bridge that day he stood there shocked by the whole thing.....
Three days after that situation...he didn't call nd I didn't bother...on the fourth day I went to visit him but I only met Milly...when Milly saw me she was smiling....“i don't know what you did but it worked ....he left yesterday for the space program"she had said ..her face beaming with joy..“i j
Had wanted to come and thank you but I was occupied”she said still smiling....hope u had sometimes with him before he left???Milly asked
Uhmm...yes ”i lied with fake smile“how could I tell her I that we haven't even seen for two days now...or the fact that I didn't know he even went for the space program...
I didn't know why but I soaked my pillows with tears later that night ....it hurts that he forgot me so easily even though I didn't want to admit it.... slowly that sadness turned into hatred....
It took someday to realize that I didn't hate him....it was just a disguise for my sadness
Milly said he was doing well...I should be happy for him ....even though I didn't call him,I would always dream of opening my doors one-day and find him there ...we had been neighbors back then in London and course mate in Texas ...I didn't want to let go of the fact that he was my best friend.
“on the plane that day...I realized that what you did actually worked on me...u were trying to help me by saying those hurtful things ...u were trying to make me confident. ...tough ... It was too late then .... when I try calling you I feel guilty...I felt like a bad friend ....I felt ashamed...I would always ask Milly how u were doing but lack the confidence to call u.....I was so ashamed of myself....he said sadly
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