Someone once asked me what I was deeply afraid of. I just shrugged and replied with my phobia of spiders. But deep down I'm terrified of much more than that... guess I was just too scared to tell them the truth.

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I'm afraid I've wasted too much of my life stressing over stupid things that won't matter in the long run.

I’m afraid I’ve been trained to only see the worst in people or that I expect too much out of them and it drives them away.

I'm afraid of losing control. That one day I'll just snap and do something completely unpredictable and hurt someone close to me. I'm scared that I'll let my wild emotions take over. I'll get angry and lash out or I'll start crying for no apparent reason. I'm terrified that the people closest to me will find out that I can't keep my emotions under control and they'll either leave out of disgust or fear.

I'm afraid my ambivalence and indecision will control my life and I'll always be stuck...