a cold shower isn't like that intens any more.idon't feel the pain. ifeel like I'm sick in my mind. stuck with my emotions. the bult me when i compression they celebrate the pokemon catching game. when ifeel bad about stuff. i always fill the dishes and they still complain. say idon't do it. but they don't treat me the same as the rest. who don't do it
the unfairity is almost indescribable. it brings me great comfort knowing I'm not the only one who is being bullied here. they made aplan to kill me so I'm choosing not to play by the rules and fight as hard as ican. something is clearly wrong here because they keep asking about my parents. pushing me to like them. while they bullied me to. now idon't want to be soft and weak but my mind is playing games on me sometimes. they make me feel like i made everything up but that's not true. burr the truth is that iam weak. the guy who eased also in clinic bullied me. he was responding to my emotion luring me like afish, confusing me. so ithought of arule he cannot talk to me anymore, it went well for 2 or 3 months maybe but he keeps looking for gaps trying to bully me.it makes me scared why doesn't he stop? they are manipulating telling to make me say it wad amistake ignoring and pushing my family away. but they where bullying me. i feel so weak and if like the whole planet is watching me. if they would just leave me alone. iwent toll an attrectionpark with a coleague and four three first time in 3 or 4 years i could sleep without having to push myself to hard by counting etc. i feel like they are putting thoughts in my mind and controlling thoughts. like iwas thinking today my life was ablast and great but truthfully it was certainly not. everybody is wearing masks. using excuses so they don't be the centre of attention. like starting close to ego with themselves. being the best at stuff would be great in life cause people judge. they scan you for weak points and will use it. rarely have a sufistecaded plan or so. but yeah i don't want to be the centre of attention any more.... please ineed help.i need some advice. thus is all happening because im not sharp anymore cause ihave been using to many drugs in my life and it's making me feel stupid. but in the end the truth always flos above to the survase for the world to see and rightiousness wil shine or not ? will this be corona land forever?
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