I've never liked parties. They make me feel like the whole world is coming to cave in on me. Shouting and voices and laughter swallow up whatever rational thoughts I think and it turns me into anxiety. I become anxiety. I am shaking, my chest is heaving, my eyes can't focus on the people around me. It's all too much.

Maybe if .y parents didn't like parties I would want to go. But it's just not fun when I've been told to enjoy them since...