As the vastness of space passed them by Selene and Stevie sat at the table both extremely bored. Then Stevie looked over at Selene, and asked something that had been on his mind for a while,
"Still wearing that cross necklace,huh". "Why wouldn't I be, Stevie," Selene asked, a bit confused.
"Well other than your activism, and it's conflicts with all of it" Stevie stopped and gestured to himself barely holding it together with the distance between him and the photo.
Selene eyed him with a sad look, then it changed to a smile and she answered, "Just because you exist, in current form, doesn't mean there isn't something after, it just means for whatever reason good or bad or neutral you are still here". Stevie chuckled, but he wondered deep inside if that wasn't true. Stevie then posed the first question again.
"Okay, but that still doesn't answer the first.."
"The first question is even simpler to answer, if you actually think about it." Selene bemused.
Indeed Stevie understood after a second thought.
"You love God and hate the church" Stevie wasn't too shocked by that. His feelings had been similar prior to everything.
"Of course, and my religion is my religion, it is my right to believe what I chose the same as I would afford to my Jewish, Muslim, and other types of religious friends, or even atheists , that is within all of our rights" Selene asserted.
"OK, But still" Stevie started again.
"But still what, I don't cherry pick like our parents or like some of their peers do to justify homophobic or transphobic behaviors. I can't imagine there is any decent person Christian or otherwise who does that," Selene affirmed.
Stevie used to believe all that too, but what if… what if one of those believed almost just as he did, but who did cherry pick that stuff had been someone who had seen an opportunity and killed him. The thought probably wouldn't have shocked Warren, he never had believed in any of it, but Stevie had felt himself recoil at the thought, as he was sure Selene would as well.
Stevie just nodded "Yeah, maybe" he whispered, not quite believing what his cousin had said.
Selene looked at him quietly for a few minutes processing this apparent half hearted, but really almost no hearted answer.
When she spoke next it was with a heavier heart. "If you don't still believe in something at least, then what do you think is gonna happen when or if you.." She stared straight through him with that question, though Stevie wouldn't ever admit it.
"Well, since you have so many different friends I thought you might know that already '' Stevie joked.
But then he shifted uncomfortably, and his ghostly form flickered as he next spoke " I do still sort of believe in some pseudo...