#Fictinalwrites_HB #SoftLove
#Knowtodowhat. #Haveamindset.


I would remember my old days when I moved to a new town, I was really enthralled to join my new school of 11th.

in few days I got my friendship with Yadav, he's had got a such charismatic personality in him, very entertaining and precised.

he knows where to speak, how to speak and what to speak, he's behaviour is my favourite thing.

with all of his girl friends, I was specifically placed, he would call me and say everything of school, if I'm not present in the place,
we had lunch in under tree shades, played basketball together and even studied, to score better.

his voice that had my name was one of the beautiful flower fragrance in my life.

"Janvi"
I looked who called me, it's Yadav again.
"What's up man?"
"Hmm, going to basketball ground wanna join?"
"I'll come shortly, Sir called me to collect forms to class"
"Can I wait for you?"
"Nah, it's fine it might take time, I'll come man" I giggled and slapped his shoulders
he smiled and went to change his sports wear.

~•~
there's an instinct feeling on me, I looked at the direction and it was Ishani.

I know her, always shy and she's a very less Active person, in all of class, she never talks to anyone, she's so shy.

"Ishani?"
"Huhhh?"
she was scared.
"Hey girl, stop scaring me with your sounds, we have known each other for a year, wanna share something?" I concerned.
"Huh...I ...that...no" she said.

"Hey Janvi!!! " it's Arav.
"What's that, why you shouting"
"Well how's Neha? is she okay?"
"Ha, ya she's fine, she will come to school tomorrow dude"
"Take care of her, give my notes to her"
"You took notessss?"
"Just today"
"Ohhh" I had got it... and then he went out.

Neha was my apartment neighbour, Neha is Arav's friend, so today this guy took notes for her.

damn it, I was talking to Ishani, I looked at her, she was following Arav.
she went out and Arav kept talking to Ishani, as I looked at her, she was blushing and deeply in Love with him.

and then she came to her seat, and I looked at her, "Arav likes Neha right?" she asked me very differently.

before I would respond, she wake up from her seat and looked at me embarassing, "Please Forget my words, it's my mind voice, damn!.... I'm....sorry"
She ran out before I would catch her.

but her words deeply make me shake my heart.
what I had for Yadav was the same, it just I look at him with love, he wasn't like that...
it just someday he going to introduce me to someone, and still Yadav will hope I'm his good friend.

No, I don't want this feeling.

I feel sad for Ishani, and someday I'll be Ishani. I know this pain.
it's better to see Yadav differently not as love but as a friend.

as I thought, my phone rang...
it's Physics sir, I forget to collect the form.
I collected the form, and packaged my stuffs to get home.

~•~
Such a beautiful scenery, a way with less peoples and dusk time, the birds flying to nest, colour of sky and it deeply relaxed my heart.

"Janvi?"
I lifted my head down from up, it's Jagadesh.

well he's kinda cool, and I had feelings for him, very light feelings.
he's good looking and helps everyone like Yadav.

"Hey Jagadesh, late to home?" I smiled.
"Ya, basketball practice, just get over now, why are you late too, why you walking alone?"
"Ha, it's physics sir! he called me and gave multiple tasks, to do. and I dunno where's Yadav too, I had waited for him, but I suddenly thought to walk alone with myself" I laughed pitufully.

"That guy is like that, dunno what to do at what time, it's really late and you're alone, unfair"

Jagadesh, had opened a rage, a rage I felt relaxed, damn man, why he is so nice to everyone?

"Oh... sorry, it just, it's not fair" he smiled hustling his hair in embarassment, his cheeks blushed.
"You're Blushing, Jagadesh!!!" I yelled, that guy looked even more embarassed and told me to stop shouting, as I kept repeating it for an another time, he pulled me closer and kept his head closer to mine, I felt dizzy and it's warm romantic, his hands that's wrap my waist with his are really warm.

I wish this would last forever.

he wasn't allowing me to go out, neither I can't, what is this, does he have feelings?
feel impossible to me.

"Hmm, Jagadesh I've to go to home"

"I wish this would last forever."

he mumbled something like that. he really say this!
"WHAT?" I was flabbergasted.
"Look who's blushing, it's you!!!" he yelled.
"You punk!" I hit with my lunch bag.
"Revenge Baby!" he laughed.
I ran towards him to beat him.

After a long run, we came to the park, and he sat in a swing, the swing in which Yadav and me used to sit together in nights starting stars, as like as love counting night stars, as we grow up we wouldn't find time.

"Heyy, Janvi sit here"
"Jagadesh, I think it's getting late"
"Ya, Your mom will be late today right?"
"How you know?"
"Your mom and my mom works in the same office and today it's foundation day, they will be late, can't we enjoy till that?" he asked me softly, and he extended his hands towards me, to seat in the swing, I grabbed his hands and sat in it.

"I can't leave you alone" he said looking at the evening stars.
I act like I haven't hear it.
whenever I look at night sky, it's like my past cloud, I feel nostalgia.
I feel Ishani is me, I feel Yadav is Jagadesh, both are going to fade away from me.

"Janvi"
"Huh?"
"I been calling you for a plenty times, what happened are you thinking deeply about something?"
"Nah, Nothing."
"You know what?"
"What?" I laughed.
"I had feelings for you, from the first day of our meet"
"Unbelievable" I looked bewildered.
"Nah I'm serious, the first day you helped me from Physics teacher, to guiding through lines, I liked you Janvi..."
"Oh" I got no words.
"As I thought to convey my feelings, peoples said you and Yadav had a thing, it made me feel worse, but today I'm cleared"
"What?"
"It's always you and Yadav behave like Friends, which is visible, and also I saw Yadav with Riya, they are dating"

I would feel my crumble inside me, but I haven't show cased it, it just a feeling.

"That's cool" I said
"They will say you Tommorow, Yadav said to me that."
"Oh"
"Do you know why I'm saying you this now?"
"Why?"
"I know you liked Yadav, but I'm here to say, love me Janvi, It's enough, why you wanted to have feelings for someone who don't have feelings for you, I'm just here to say you this, have me, only if you like to have me, and I think you love me too?" he asked this line blushing.

"Yes, I love you too Jagadesh" I said shy, yet bravely, yes. Yadav is a good friend, just because I share things with him, he can't be mine. But Jagadesh that Person where my mind stayed.

He hugged me and took me higher towards the sky and said "Let you watch this sky frequently with me, only me"

"I'll as always"
and we kissed!

and now, I'm going to say this story of mine to help Ishani, let Ishani become Me, if she can't be her that time.

~•~
No Matter what, if you can't have your expectations god will send his reality, which is way more beautiful than your expectations, because it's True. Reality is True and it'll be happening to you!!!
~•~

© Hazel