Dear Diary🙂💙
My one and only friend>< who knows all about me 💞🌷 Today I want to open up this weight over my heart and soul 🙃>> as you know A Smile Doesn't Everytime Mean That The Person Is Happy ♡
Simply I am feeling tired of life>> colorless and just hope is the only option 🌹🌸 I continue to figure out the mystery inside me and the battlefield never will ever be the same it changes from time to time 🥀✨ sometimes it is a sad withered rose ,sometimes it is a water deprived land, sometimes it is a hollow beating heart💓

Purpose of sending to Earth is not unknown 💝🙃 but this killed and defeated soul has no power to stand up when satans are grabbing her hardly to make her sit>> in some battles I hear Allah ❤️ in some He is so silent 😶>>> maybe 🤔 he wants me to learn through signs? 🤔💙
This is true that Allah has said; The greed of more has made you blind 💔

We only want more and more and in this more we waste a lot of our energies 🖌️🥲
We have never forgive our past mistakes and keep scolding ourselves 🌹🥀 yet God wants to Join Us😊🥰🌸

We never understand His grand plans🙂🥲💙 I want the power to understand everything He wants to tell me and I want to lose this world 🙃💝 Just to get my Allah ✨ What can I do I don't have the spiritual powers like Prophets > Difficult journey 🥲🙃 I just wanted to get free from this absorbing 🧽 others habit I hurt myself 💔🥲 everyday, every moment 🥲 when I can't feel you Allah 💞 I am a Muslim but still itz difficult enough for me to find you out>> touch you ,, love you 😊🥀 Just one day with come when all these worries will end ♡♡

I wanna be the childhood me😊🥀 who could enjoy the smallest things>> now I am empty from inside... demanding love, care but I am mature right I must be keeping my inner child hidden 🥀😊 like >> Ahh I want to find solutions🤔
I have to be ready and trust myself 🌷💓

THIS TIME I WILL WIN💙✨

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