Feeling the weight of her actions dragging her through the mud, Gia woke up feeling like a worthless person. She had sworn to herself that she'd get over him and what does she do when he shows up? She melts like butter .

Hate is too little to describe what she felt for herself. She lay quietly in bed replaying everything in her head .

How could she love and hate him at same time ? And why wouldn't he just leave her alone ? If only he had stayed away, then maybe she could have healed.

She didn't need to turn around to know that he had left. She could feel it. And in the comfort of that knowledge, she clutched her sheet and "screamed" till her throat begun to hurt.

She felt this bitter pang in her heart and she felt like she was on fire . Everything hurt. Her heart felt broken, her mind went blank and she felt sore all over .

Pulling herself into an embrace, she 'sobbed'. This was a different kind of pain which she wasn't prepared to deal with.

This wasn't the first time, it wasn't even the 20th time . And she was well aware of it , but somehow, it hurt her more than those other times, and it's not because he left, it's because he came back and brushed everything off like it wasn't a big deal. And she allowed him to .

She could feel knots in her stomach as she lay there drowning in tears. Even breathing had become a nearly impossible task . It's like she was trapped in a world of never ending Sadness.

She wanted to end all this . She needed to . The pain was unbearable. It wasn't just physical pain, it was mental,...