Though you are alive
you aren't free, it's quite amusing we haven't really
reached the point where
our lives could be 10% more
vulnerable to failures and death of loved ones. it's amusing when you loose everything you once loved.
it's a piece of freedom.
A price of living without consequences, doubt or fear
because he who lost simply gained a mantra of in depth
value of what's it like to loose
something therefore permitting one to have the courage enough to love those around him because he or she once knew death on a personal
scale of life. your understanding to this will come through experience of
loosing more than pride but a soul you may no longer communicate nor hold any longer. One gift in life you should attain is appreciation yet it's so far gone because the world is on a complete tilt,
yet the one's in charge aren't free at all.
I'm not talking about your governments or parents it simply could be anyone or anything you could associate this feeling too, who knows could even be yourself. We complain about life and the people amongst us yet we sit idol in such simple meaningless gossip which wouldn't change anything necessarily meaningful to you but you young so you listen anyways which is truly understandable and most remarkable knowing that they might be referring to your career or financial situations regarding the future which really is a conversation you've been having with yourself over and over. Yet humanity deemed you such that you will be questioned by those around you or judged by sight which honestly I now find completely utterly boring to witness. ever feel like you gonna die young? yep we all suddenly continuously have this in our heads especially if it's dark it might be the only thing you see and that's just soaking up some of the depressed thoughts which come by randomly. honestly we've got people dying around the world and it still wouldn't change anything. The truth is if you young and reading this
stop stabbing yourself for the things you can't change, forgive yourself because no one else will. I saw time run
faster through a friend's eyes with love and care before I even lost him. sometimes it's the one's you've known
for a short period of time that will give you the most devastating experiences and knowledge you will ever come by.
I actually in fact have a lot to do in the after life and coming from me this is a problem due to age but my experience weights far more, I've done too much and noticed too much to sum it up but I can say that I have lived and I have lived well is probably one of the greatest achievements I've accomplished. I couldn't complain at this point in my life. I mean nowadays I'm seeing less
of myself around others, it's almost never having to say anything nor have your presence noticed which I couldn't be more happier about. honestly it's as if I'm a ghost amongst the living yet I'm haunted by what's in my mind. I need a euphoria like some sense of life , maybe a relationship but even thats an effort to go through nowadays. I mean it's all good but I'm not at the place where I want to be. I'm not a stranger to these seas and I've never had calm waters to begin with which I'm thankful for otherwise I'd probably be a comedian
however that's probably a 18% chance due to my increase rate of not being able to explain things to people due to laziness and irrational effects I have towards some crowds. it's almost like repeating yourself to your parents from your room. so again let's just find a movie to take my mind of it and I'll do what I gotta do to attain my little time of peace before chaos irrupts.

However the story will continue.
I'd like an applause if you've reached this minor conclusion we've come too
I appreciate your time.
© A Whisper from