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Love or lie?
so its come to this now?
It's been five years since that day. Yet , a simple request made it all rinse like nothing existed ever. I can still feel your voice under your breath though it's mere an illusion. I was under spell of my very own weaknesses.
And yes, once again its twisted the way it was back then..
It's difficult to not reminisce, My emotions've been vulnerable once again whenever I see your face. who cares if its just an immobile image , I guess my compassion for you has forever been this way. Perhaps impossible is another lie in this conundrum world. Your charm succeded in melting my stone heart engraving your name on it for my life. Many aksed what's intriguing about you? N I had never been as clueless before. Maybe its just my Eyes that illuminates whats so special in you.
It all marks to the first day approx seven years back, when I was exaggerately attracted to someone like you fyi it's unlike me to fall easily. And all I can recall is how insanely in love although egoistic,shy and introverted me could never confess any of that. My heart still aches on hearing the news You were already in love with someone else....God works in mysterious way ,atleast that's what people say... forward to two years later ...Me and My bestie vibin around ,all of a sudden my axiety loses control and what do I see its a request from you.. Cardiacally and emotionally awestruck me , my heart throbbing like some misile ready to launch...It was not hour long then we started texting...Me blusing like a complete maiden , this time I was determined to express . And cherry on the cake you were broken too... I knew I could fix it , I knew I could make you happy...cherish your essence... So with all the courage , I conveyed ... It took just ten minutes to speak but felt like a century when you were quite for ten seconds in between. That was the closest death experience to me if recorded. Though it was long distance thing,those butterflies in my belly evovled to be monster dragons... I never felt this way before.. It was sacred...N then i realized my eyes can smile too, tears can be sweet too ,curves on my face all escalated in joy when you said u love me back....
One of the best moments in my entire life... But, within Three days it was all ruined... I knew all along you were lying... You still in love with her...and I ain't her... Well, it took days of 24/7 crying ,months of frustration .. i gues sabotaging something partial is best than thriving to fill up wanning spaces..
post that, You never talked , i never tried to reach out....
Today, after seven years , notification pops up and there you are... N yet again my heart skips a beat... what happens next? well, God works mysteriously ,lets be clueless another time...
© vhxb.13
It's been five years since that day. Yet , a simple request made it all rinse like nothing existed ever. I can still feel your voice under your breath though it's mere an illusion. I was under spell of my very own weaknesses.
And yes, once again its twisted the way it was back then..
It's difficult to not reminisce, My emotions've been vulnerable once again whenever I see your face. who cares if its just an immobile image , I guess my compassion for you has forever been this way. Perhaps impossible is another lie in this conundrum world. Your charm succeded in melting my stone heart engraving your name on it for my life. Many aksed what's intriguing about you? N I had never been as clueless before. Maybe its just my Eyes that illuminates whats so special in you.
It all marks to the first day approx seven years back, when I was exaggerately attracted to someone like you fyi it's unlike me to fall easily. And all I can recall is how insanely in love although egoistic,shy and introverted me could never confess any of that. My heart still aches on hearing the news You were already in love with someone else....God works in mysterious way ,atleast that's what people say... forward to two years later ...Me and My bestie vibin around ,all of a sudden my axiety loses control and what do I see its a request from you.. Cardiacally and emotionally awestruck me , my heart throbbing like some misile ready to launch...It was not hour long then we started texting...Me blusing like a complete maiden , this time I was determined to express . And cherry on the cake you were broken too... I knew I could fix it , I knew I could make you happy...cherish your essence... So with all the courage , I conveyed ... It took just ten minutes to speak but felt like a century when you were quite for ten seconds in between. That was the closest death experience to me if recorded. Though it was long distance thing,those butterflies in my belly evovled to be monster dragons... I never felt this way before.. It was sacred...N then i realized my eyes can smile too, tears can be sweet too ,curves on my face all escalated in joy when you said u love me back....
One of the best moments in my entire life... But, within Three days it was all ruined... I knew all along you were lying... You still in love with her...and I ain't her... Well, it took days of 24/7 crying ,months of frustration .. i gues sabotaging something partial is best than thriving to fill up wanning spaces..
post that, You never talked , i never tried to reach out....
Today, after seven years , notification pops up and there you are... N yet again my heart skips a beat... what happens next? well, God works mysteriously ,lets be clueless another time...
© vhxb.13
