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How I healed from my family drama
How I healed from my family drama
Guys, you know everyone has got some family issues that gives insects in their head. I have some family issues too. Look, I like the way I am. But my mom keeps telling me how dark I look, how messy my hair is, how bad my clothes are. I am not always in a good mood. These kinds of meaningless words stuck in my head and make me feel unworthy. It feels like I don't have any right to be who I am.
Also most of my emotional needs and talking needs are unmet. So, I am not a little bit prepared for her ugly, heartbreaking comments. To be honest, I feel unheard, unloved and pain too much when my mom says me all this. Then I regularly plan to take care of skin. But still my mom will tell me to use a cream to look brighter, or simply wash my face because it looks too oily. I told her I know what to do, but still she will suggest me things.
My mom also keeps telling me that I can't live without her because she cooks food for me. But the reality is I need money, not her. I would love to have my own kitchen and cook my own food. She is too focused about cleanliness and gives away vibes that all of are unhygienic. I practiced a lot of self-love to not to be affected by her ugly words, but failed. But now, with communication with her I received some healing.
When she says, wash your face, she simply wants me to know that she cares about me and want to take care of me. When she says I don't look good, she is simply teasing me or want to communicate with me. Because every time she says this, I get annoyed and tell her to shut up rudely, then she looks at me and smiles.
I still have hard time with her behaviour and words, she doesn't change even though I have told her to. Now, I have accepted every parents have different styles of communication and feeling connected to their kids. So, I am trying hard to accept the way she is.
© Nafisa Islam Tisha
Guys, you know everyone has got some family issues that gives insects in their head. I have some family issues too. Look, I like the way I am. But my mom keeps telling me how dark I look, how messy my hair is, how bad my clothes are. I am not always in a good mood. These kinds of meaningless words stuck in my head and make me feel unworthy. It feels like I don't have any right to be who I am.
Also most of my emotional needs and talking needs are unmet. So, I am not a little bit prepared for her ugly, heartbreaking comments. To be honest, I feel unheard, unloved and pain too much when my mom says me all this. Then I regularly plan to take care of skin. But still my mom will tell me to use a cream to look brighter, or simply wash my face because it looks too oily. I told her I know what to do, but still she will suggest me things.
My mom also keeps telling me that I can't live without her because she cooks food for me. But the reality is I need money, not her. I would love to have my own kitchen and cook my own food. She is too focused about cleanliness and gives away vibes that all of are unhygienic. I practiced a lot of self-love to not to be affected by her ugly words, but failed. But now, with communication with her I received some healing.
When she says, wash your face, she simply wants me to know that she cares about me and want to take care of me. When she says I don't look good, she is simply teasing me or want to communicate with me. Because every time she says this, I get annoyed and tell her to shut up rudely, then she looks at me and smiles.
I still have hard time with her behaviour and words, she doesn't change even though I have told her to. Now, I have accepted every parents have different styles of communication and feeling connected to their kids. So, I am trying hard to accept the way she is.
© Nafisa Islam Tisha
