The Lioness and the Lamb; Chapter Three/ Pt Three

Catherine/

However, I spent the night alone wrapped in sheets smelling of her. Pure torture that clung to my skin forcing me to become restless. It's hard not having mixed and confused thoughts in moments like this. The darkness surrounding me was eating away my sanity making my thoughts even darker. I tried calling her five times with nine texts but nothing was returned to me. It's like I had become forgotten and didn't matter at this time, I know I was something she wanted. But I know how greedy we can be in our lives always wanting more and often never satisfied. The darkest thought of the night was, would she break my heart or spare it.

While I am still learning about Jyn I do know that she isn't a perfect person. Serious relationships are something she yearns for but is afraid of which makes me afraid. If I had to be honest we have never talked about this relationship of ours properly. When the morning was slowly rising I had no other choice but to get ready for the day without sleep. Everything became a form of pain or pure agony as I went about getting ready. Water was no longer peaceful as it graced my skin and food lost taste on a deeper level. All my worry is building up altering everything around me and I can't do anything about it. I needed a distraction that would save me before I drowned.

" Hello?..."

That sleepy voice was something I once cherished every day, now it's a reminder of a life I left behind. I don't know why I had to call her but I did.

" Hey, Jenny... Morning, sleepyhead."

" Catharine?... Jesus am I dreaming or having a nightmare right now."

" That's fair... I just wanted a distraction, but I realize how cruel that is a little too late."

" Yeah, something like that...so what's wrong or happening."

I could hear the sound of another woman talking which isn't a first. This...