I have heard stories from people have gone through things that most people would that they shouldn't have gone through. There would be some kind of pity or sympathy when I hear these stories and I oftened ask myself I wondered what's that like? Well now I know what's like because I'd through it, so I don't have to wonder anymore. It probably wasn't a good thing wonder about that was the universe way of telling me things. Maybe by living through all the things I'd wondered was the powers at be saying you need to empathise not pity or sympathize with them. Makes me feel as if I am being punished for curiosity. Well people say that curiousity killed the cat. Maybe that is what's happening to me, I'm the cat prefer Black or Siamese and because I was curious I am living it. Wondering, isn't killing me so I'd really need the whole cats have nine-lives things, but that doesn't that living the wondering doesn't hurt. Things I used to wonder about going to different schools almost every year(that was more a goal I had in Elementary school, weird goal I know). But, now I know what's it like to go to different schools a constant basis and I'll admit, it sucks, don't know what I was thinking when I made that goal. I was seven or eight at the time so you gotta me some slack or a little slack, ok? Then, I used wonder about being single-parented because so many people I knew and met over the years were single-parented and they turned out alright. I thought living with my dad full time was better than doing Jointed-custody with mom. Now, I know what single-parenting is like, and at first, it was really hard and I didn't take the transition well neither did my dad and there were times where I missed my mom, but I didn't have a choice for safety and health reasons. Now, after ten plus years I finally understand and while there are people out who have been raised by wonderful single parents. Me on the otherhand, not so much, I've been trying to decide whether I was better off in jointed-custody or single parented. According to my sister was better off being single parented than jointed custody. But, my dad is so hard to live with and turns your inside out all the time. Because living with dad has been a totally nightmare, I have often wondered and imaged what my life would be like if had lived with my sister which I originally wanted to do because I knew my dad was hard and difficult to live just from going there on weekends, but that wonder is just a figment of my imagination. However, I did just recently find out that if my sister knew how bad things were at my dad's she would have taken me in. So, wondering what life or what my life could've been if I had said something earlier then all that wondering could have or would have been a reality. But I was scared of having another...