Sunday, October 8, 2023
7:00 A.M

An Update to an Old Friend

Dear, Good Friend


There Is a lot to fill you in on so I did my best to summarize it since we can’t speak. I won't take too much of your time but check this real quick and see:

I write to keep my mental sane and it has helped me drastically. Inside I'm at peace and my mind is at ease but than the other side of me feels bleak. I hold it all in and try not to think about it, but than it hits me harder than a slap across the face as I try to sleep. I feel restless at times and all rested at the same time and thoughts randomly come in with aggression. Than I put some blame on it as if I were the one that could have prevent it. I reached out to you because I remember how we use to talk about things and how I felt at ease. I don't remember having this with anyone other than when you were by my side watching me cry as you came by because what seperated you and I, was a fire escape the day you move next door to mine. You came with no hesitation and proof to be a loyal friend to the end, but it was me who disappeared without any explanation in the end. You stood by and told me everything was going to be alright, and I faithfully believed you because you were the realest since day one. I'm not trying to rhym but I been getting better with my words in my head and it has helped me understand that it is what it is. It's in the past, but I can't right my wrongs without mentioning to you first. That I can't thank you enough for always being kind to me even when I disappeared. Not once, not twice, but three time’s throughout the years. I wasn’t there when your love one departed to heaven, but even worse I feel ashamed because I never said it when I should’ve said it. I wrote you a letter a few years back that I decided to tear down. I contemplating day after day whether I should have mailed it to you out. I struggle inside because I really though my life be great. I found a lady, got married, bought a car, I even rented a house. Turns out differences where more than we could both handle as we threw shots at one another while loud words being shout out. The love was there but it sure wasn’t in favor of us together as we rode through the rollercoaster we kept hitting heavy and thunderstorms altogether. She got ill suddenly and even worst it appears to be all over. Im hurting so much inside but I keep strong, a great front just so I don’t stumble and drown in my own sorrow. But at the end of the day is all up to God’s plan so I won’t crumble.

I am patiently waiting and I don’t like what the doctors and...