it's been a while since I've felt like this. my heart pounding in my chest. you don't need drugs to get this high. I'm not saying it's bad, but I can't say it's all good. it's the hardest thing ever, to tell your heart, it can't love as much as it wants. or to express all of how it feels. or to say, too it, you can't see the one you love, and even though it rips you apart inside mentally and emotionally. you endure until there is nothing left to give. your time, your love, your patience. all seams not to matter when you have been pushed away. breaking your own heart for what you don't understand, has got to be murder in the first degrees. what I'm saying is if the heart, is asked to be put on hold, why can't it be done with some type of serious security. that allows it to be comfortable about what's going on. then it could be allowed to be on hold, for any extended period of time. because it has been let known, it's loved, its thought about once in a while and that it is important to that person. now it can't be helped that this might have to be done a couple times a day. so what,!!! if your partners heart is worth something to you, and they are important to you,, it shouldn't be that hard to show. even if your hurting your self.. but to leave the loving heart alone with nothing to hang on too. will only end up in disaster.. cause what is it supposed to do?‽ Unchecked and emotionally abandoned. not knowing which way to turn. not knowing who might be in the shadows waiting for that one moment to swoop in and take your place. and for what, because you loved someone, and told your heart to wait. the heart beats with an emotional power that lives for love. and dies alone.
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