back then, well, it was yesterday. it was madness. it's all over I can't tell u how hurtful it is... it's hard to tell, I cannot describe it, I'm afraid to talk about it, who should I tell about it, and why... does it make sense to talk about it, oops I will think about if I am ready to talk about it... umm, oops I already started talking about it I know I am crazy about it but cannot talk about it like how I want to talk about it, sometimes I crack up about it but I want to be smart about it, but I don't think about it, I guess I should forget about it. until I am ready to write about it and publish it like many other great stories that a lot of people want to read. by SMI thinking