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Delayed gratification
chapter 1
I began writing this book as a journal to document my experiment on delayed gratification. it all started with my continuous use of marijuana .which was my drug of choice. My use of marijuana started at a young age quickly it spiraled out of control I began using for breakfast lunch and dinner to support my habit I resorted to stealing this led me to jail where I found myself sober when I got out I started smoking almost immediately the high was too much after being sober for an extended amount of time I found myself hallucinating just off a few hits as time went on the high was increasingly harder to find with more and more frequent use to achieve little-to-no results I moved back into the saturated stage of addiction where I was just using to be normal I know your thinking weed or cannabis as it is called in the medical industry is not that dangerous but if you are an addict everything is dangerous .eating cake could be dangerous if done by an addict don't let me get into heroin or alcohol I'll be here all day. everything has a different effect on each user some people just don't know what moderation is. while others can eat cake at Christmas and their birthday. every person is different with different goals and dreams. one thing is for sure no one wants to live in the misery that is addiction. so in this book, I will try my best to explain how I conducted my experiment. the results I have found. along with the path, it has led me. currently, I've been drug and alcohol-free for 60 months and don't think I will ever go back. by the grace of God.it is because of God's good favor I am able to stay sober and be given the chance to share with you my findings.
this is the first book that I have created. all I have has been put into this book in an attempt to give strength to the hopeless struggling addicts to overcome the demons. by recognizing the problem and correlate their addictive nature to their destructive habits this is not a 12-step book or religious book a higher power will be referred to numerous times because of my enlightening experience on this plane of existence. which I will get into more in-depth in future chapters. cannabis was my drug of choice. but by far not the only drug I used. the words I etch in Time are presented in this manuscript they are bestowed upon you with flavor and love .because it takes a lot for me to open up like this. What I have done was done with love and caring for the addict ones. with a chosen illness. someone in the fit of addiction is ill beyond all means unable to cope with the stress of life or obligations of society. they turned to use as a crutch to come to grips with their inadequate choices. digging themself deeper into a hole. how deep it goes all depends on how far the person is willing to go to find the bottom.when the bottom is found we all look up to see the light and how far from the top of the hole we are. some try to just stay there. soon finding a ends to their means. death is the ultimate payment for one's ill-begotten actions. Like I said before cannabis and say heroin are two totally different drugs bringing the user or addict to two different totally places. for me, my life had become unmanageable. I had gone to prison so many times I was having a hard time remembering how many. I knew it was all part of a greater plan to keep me sober, also to show me I have power. power to control my life in a positive way. in a way that won't put me back to prison. just being around people that use Brings Me Down brings me to a place on the addiction level. It makes me make choices to prove to the people around me that I am not an addict anymore. This still makes me make bad choices. because of the addictive nature in me, I cannot even hang out with addicts. I allow their bad choices to affect me as a person and so at this moment in time, I have made a choice not only not to use drugs but do not associate with people that use them. I have made so many changes in the last 4 years that it has even surprised me. I quit smoking weed and drinking but also I quit smoking cigarettes and drinking Red Bull. so I started growing my hair too. now my hair is at my middle back .the next thing I did was quit eating meat. I love meat so much beef chicken lamb elk deer. I was killing myself with just another addiction. so I stopped.I now feel healthier and more well-off God has given me the choice to control myself. I love him for that for without him I would never have been able to do these wonderful things or recognized that my choice to use was just a choice not a have-to or a must.
But I could or I can then I just turned it around and started to make the conscious decision to not used and begin to discover the benefits.
chapter 2
so because this book and experiment are so dear to me and...
I began writing this book as a journal to document my experiment on delayed gratification. it all started with my continuous use of marijuana .which was my drug of choice. My use of marijuana started at a young age quickly it spiraled out of control I began using for breakfast lunch and dinner to support my habit I resorted to stealing this led me to jail where I found myself sober when I got out I started smoking almost immediately the high was too much after being sober for an extended amount of time I found myself hallucinating just off a few hits as time went on the high was increasingly harder to find with more and more frequent use to achieve little-to-no results I moved back into the saturated stage of addiction where I was just using to be normal I know your thinking weed or cannabis as it is called in the medical industry is not that dangerous but if you are an addict everything is dangerous .eating cake could be dangerous if done by an addict don't let me get into heroin or alcohol I'll be here all day. everything has a different effect on each user some people just don't know what moderation is. while others can eat cake at Christmas and their birthday. every person is different with different goals and dreams. one thing is for sure no one wants to live in the misery that is addiction. so in this book, I will try my best to explain how I conducted my experiment. the results I have found. along with the path, it has led me. currently, I've been drug and alcohol-free for 60 months and don't think I will ever go back. by the grace of God.it is because of God's good favor I am able to stay sober and be given the chance to share with you my findings.
this is the first book that I have created. all I have has been put into this book in an attempt to give strength to the hopeless struggling addicts to overcome the demons. by recognizing the problem and correlate their addictive nature to their destructive habits this is not a 12-step book or religious book a higher power will be referred to numerous times because of my enlightening experience on this plane of existence. which I will get into more in-depth in future chapters. cannabis was my drug of choice. but by far not the only drug I used. the words I etch in Time are presented in this manuscript they are bestowed upon you with flavor and love .because it takes a lot for me to open up like this. What I have done was done with love and caring for the addict ones. with a chosen illness. someone in the fit of addiction is ill beyond all means unable to cope with the stress of life or obligations of society. they turned to use as a crutch to come to grips with their inadequate choices. digging themself deeper into a hole. how deep it goes all depends on how far the person is willing to go to find the bottom.when the bottom is found we all look up to see the light and how far from the top of the hole we are. some try to just stay there. soon finding a ends to their means. death is the ultimate payment for one's ill-begotten actions. Like I said before cannabis and say heroin are two totally different drugs bringing the user or addict to two different totally places. for me, my life had become unmanageable. I had gone to prison so many times I was having a hard time remembering how many. I knew it was all part of a greater plan to keep me sober, also to show me I have power. power to control my life in a positive way. in a way that won't put me back to prison. just being around people that use Brings Me Down brings me to a place on the addiction level. It makes me make choices to prove to the people around me that I am not an addict anymore. This still makes me make bad choices. because of the addictive nature in me, I cannot even hang out with addicts. I allow their bad choices to affect me as a person and so at this moment in time, I have made a choice not only not to use drugs but do not associate with people that use them. I have made so many changes in the last 4 years that it has even surprised me. I quit smoking weed and drinking but also I quit smoking cigarettes and drinking Red Bull. so I started growing my hair too. now my hair is at my middle back .the next thing I did was quit eating meat. I love meat so much beef chicken lamb elk deer. I was killing myself with just another addiction. so I stopped.I now feel healthier and more well-off God has given me the choice to control myself. I love him for that for without him I would never have been able to do these wonderful things or recognized that my choice to use was just a choice not a have-to or a must.
But I could or I can then I just turned it around and started to make the conscious decision to not used and begin to discover the benefits.
chapter 2
so because this book and experiment are so dear to me and...
