I struggle with math
I don't understand why others can't understand that.

Why are they ashamed to see me fall into it?.

I tried my best with the same strategy of yesterday I had with this feelings of overwhelmed but all I could do is cry till I smile.

It's hurts to have it
but my mom said that maybe I didn't have it.

Maybe
should I not believe the signs?
But
what if I'm already all alone with this thoughts I fight everyday?

why should I care for those?.

Maybe I'm just really an idiot.

I shouldn't have care for myself.

I shouldn't have find what is the problem in me.

It's just-I don't wanted them to say it's too late to find what I tried in it.

Math is my main anxiety.

Cause I never know if I was right or my mom because I'm scared myself to see who I am in it, fighting with those battles of do I have it or I don't have it?
with the same it's fine words
I'm already tired to hear that I don't have an problems in it.

but what if I do? should I stop caring with it and care for what I'm going to choose next than my own struggle?.

I'm scared everyday to be an failure to each person eye's but when I looked in myself I see that I maybe am what you thought.

Having wrong spellings wrong grammar with having wrong numbers in the wrong answers where I tried to understand but end up looking for imaginary numbers.

I really hate myself.

I don't understand why others don't.

I'm just an constant failure of each step I take.

I don't know what to write with all of this thoughts stopping me so that you can forget the tomorrow words I've said
I tried to understand what is the cause
but each person I meet stop me from looking in it.

I'm scared to look in everyone eyes especially who I'm going to be once I step out.

I'm not an special child but I'm just different with struggle growing up to understand who am I.
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