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Dear Diary #2
Dear Diary, I am stressed. School is just plain stressful. I have probably been more stressed in the first week of grade 10 than I have ever been in all of middle school. I was definitely not prepared enough for High School.
But answer me this, how does one prepare for High School? I have learned a lot of things in this first week, but I haven't learned how to become more organized with my schedule and homework. My google docs and my drive is a mess. I never bothered to try to sort it. Maybe I should. I have never been too strong with technology. Adults assume since I am young and "smart" to an extent that I should know the ways of the internet and technology as a whole. I don't. I really don't.
I've been trying to study for an upcoming quiz tomorrow and I am being distracted. And usually I shouldn't complain about this thing but I really want to. My sister won't stop crying. I mean balling, pools of tears and snot, everything that comes with a mental breakdown. And I know I shouldn't be rude, I know I shouldn't tell her to be quiet.. but is it really wrong of me to want to? I won't obviously, but still.
She just broke up with her toxic ex boyfriend and she has been having these crying "fits" every now and then. As her sister, I should try to be supportive. I should try and help her cope and be positive, but with all of this depression around me and myself included, It's been close to impossible to stay "positive". I've been relying on reading webtoons for that. I just want to be numb now. I don't want to feel.
I'm memorizing the terms and I will try my best to study tonight, but it truly is annoying. Is it wrong of me to say that? I have a right to my own opinion, and as long as it stays inside of my head, we won't have a problem. Should I tell my teacher? Should I try and get in with the councilor? I don't know what to do anymore. I will try my best but if I have to I should leave the house to study more. Just so I don't get distracted. Curses for being a sensitive human being.
Anyways, that's it. Thank you :)
© Tannni
But answer me this, how does one prepare for High School? I have learned a lot of things in this first week, but I haven't learned how to become more organized with my schedule and homework. My google docs and my drive is a mess. I never bothered to try to sort it. Maybe I should. I have never been too strong with technology. Adults assume since I am young and "smart" to an extent that I should know the ways of the internet and technology as a whole. I don't. I really don't.
I've been trying to study for an upcoming quiz tomorrow and I am being distracted. And usually I shouldn't complain about this thing but I really want to. My sister won't stop crying. I mean balling, pools of tears and snot, everything that comes with a mental breakdown. And I know I shouldn't be rude, I know I shouldn't tell her to be quiet.. but is it really wrong of me to want to? I won't obviously, but still.
She just broke up with her toxic ex boyfriend and she has been having these crying "fits" every now and then. As her sister, I should try to be supportive. I should try and help her cope and be positive, but with all of this depression around me and myself included, It's been close to impossible to stay "positive". I've been relying on reading webtoons for that. I just want to be numb now. I don't want to feel.
I'm memorizing the terms and I will try my best to study tonight, but it truly is annoying. Is it wrong of me to say that? I have a right to my own opinion, and as long as it stays inside of my head, we won't have a problem. Should I tell my teacher? Should I try and get in with the councilor? I don't know what to do anymore. I will try my best but if I have to I should leave the house to study more. Just so I don't get distracted. Curses for being a sensitive human being.
Anyways, that's it. Thank you :)
© Tannni
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