I been finding reasons to hold on for a while
nothing seem to worthwhile
praying every nights for someone to save me but nobody even know how many tears and blood that I have to clean up everyday
keep vomiting the pain of memories but still they still so clear in my mind and running through my brain all day or night

I'm sorry that nothing is ever enough for me
they say love yourself but nobody say how
nobody hear or see what I hear and see
they don't understand
they don't understand
they don't understand.....

If life is worth living but why do I keep crying an ocean my violence hands seem to be the only relief

Don't even look at myself
in the mirror anymore
tired of insecurity
never satisfied of what I see the mirror

see all the colors in grey
wrote thousands of poems
still don't...