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My Life Dairy part 7'°`
29/2/2024
12.00PM..................SHIMLA
The whether is cloudy. Sky is Overcatsed by clouds but there is no rain. I am listening into your arms X Alone on Spotify. I am vibing with it.
Today finally after 4 years it is a leap year again. Last time it was in 2020. I don't know how fast the 4 years passed of course it must have took 4 years to pass the 4 years. I was in class 12th by that time. And I swear I didn't knew that time how my life is going to take a turn. A turn that i never thought even in my imagination. How fast the night indeed changes. And yaaa my maternal grandfather passed in 2021. And many more died will tell you about them someday. The places are still the same, the mountains are still the same, the lights are still the same and the sky it is still the same but what has changed is my life. Whenever I will think about this leap year I will always remember how things changed and left a mark of regret forever in my heart in the past years. It is not that things changed overnight and i was numb. No no not like this basically it is like you wasted two years and then in the next two years you got the result REGRETS. I whish right now the maturity level I have if only I could have it at that time. I whish I could have known that I am doing suicide to myself, I am killing myself and not others. Why didn't I realized bach then how will I end. I don't know why why why. It is so hypoxic to live with regrets, it hurts more than a breakup. I am getting short of time so I wana say to myself that right now it is not a perfect time to talk about these things. I want to take these secrets with me either dead or alive. My heart is crying cause pain of regrets broke me a lot.
Well, in the upcoming 4 years or on the next leap year 2028 you don't know how things will be, but I can guess about them. Well I don't want to loose these 4 years like the past 4 years. I want to utilize them a lot so that I won't have new regrets for the upcoming years. I don't want to have regrets in this new life. The new life that the past 4years have gave me. I know how regrets tear you apart so to present me it is a request from me to please please please not waste these 4 years. Please study well and attain that goal of mine. So that you will say I learned from the regrets. Isn't it ok to let regrets be source of inspiration. I will work hard to not let myself be a waste.
Btw If I lived then I will be 24 years old in 2028 hahaaa. I would have got to know more and more about new things. My perceptive might have changed, my thoughts might have changed. I might have meet new people and I would have learned a lot. Hahaa my degree would be done by that time and thank God I would be 24 and not 28. I have in safe zone. I won't have to get to talk about things about marriage. To be very honest I have never been someone who likes marriage. If it would have been my rule I would never marry someone. I just want to earn hounurable life, be best doctor, help people and poor and needy and yaaa travel the world as much as I can. And the at the end die. But yaaa sometimes when I think about my background of past generations and the hardwork I am doing I think marriage is good so as to continue a great generation and yaaa when my mother scolds me I think atleast marriage is good option for girls cause someone out there would take care of them hahahaahaa. I love you so much dearest mother and yaaa father tooo. My whole family. Don't mind it I just say it when u scold me hahaaa. Anyways this marriage thing throw it to dustbin. Bye bye marriage. I want to be with my parents, brothers and grandparents everytime. And say goodbye when I die. I love you people for eternity.
So yaaa where was I hahaha I always pray to Almighty to keep my paternal grandparents and my maternal grandmother fine. I want then to be by my side. I really don't know how to explain them but they are the sweetest people I have ever seen. They belong to different century ending 19th Or mid 20th I guess. They are so so so humbel, kind hearted and they have really humanity. They are just people that Almighty sent as a blessing. My world and everything. I don't think andbi never imagined living without them. I always pray that as long as I am alive they stay with alive with me. I want them to witness every happy moment of my life. I am want then to watch me growing every day. Please Almighty don't take them away from me. I love them a lot.
Of course the world will get advanced a lot in upcoming 4years. What an interesting thing. By the way I used rose water and aloe vera jel on face yesterday my mother said today you have the ugliest face among us. Look what you have done to your face. You like scratched wood. I swear she is lying I saw myself in mirror I has just one pimple and that too so small. I have soft face. But hheeeee she is like your face looks like a donkey. And I am like momy that's not makeup that's nutrition to face. I laughed and kept zipped mouth.
I hope I make a lot of great memories with my collegemates and friends. Since I know these years won't long so long so I will try my best to not hurt people be my juniors or seniors. I will try my best to make my besties laugh. Cause it is memories that last.
Well dear me, take care we will meet next leap year, I mean we will talk about upcoming 4 years in next leap year. Till then do as I said. Make regrets your source of inspiration so that next time you will be more careful with every step. I know whenever you remember past days you will be sad and your heart will ace but late on you will get to know there was something best in this too. Someone said " When you get what you want, that God's direction, when you don't get what you want, that's God's protection.
Quote by Shannon L. Alder
© reminisce
12.00PM..................SHIMLA
The whether is cloudy. Sky is Overcatsed by clouds but there is no rain. I am listening into your arms X Alone on Spotify. I am vibing with it.
Today finally after 4 years it is a leap year again. Last time it was in 2020. I don't know how fast the 4 years passed of course it must have took 4 years to pass the 4 years. I was in class 12th by that time. And I swear I didn't knew that time how my life is going to take a turn. A turn that i never thought even in my imagination. How fast the night indeed changes. And yaaa my maternal grandfather passed in 2021. And many more died will tell you about them someday. The places are still the same, the mountains are still the same, the lights are still the same and the sky it is still the same but what has changed is my life. Whenever I will think about this leap year I will always remember how things changed and left a mark of regret forever in my heart in the past years. It is not that things changed overnight and i was numb. No no not like this basically it is like you wasted two years and then in the next two years you got the result REGRETS. I whish right now the maturity level I have if only I could have it at that time. I whish I could have known that I am doing suicide to myself, I am killing myself and not others. Why didn't I realized bach then how will I end. I don't know why why why. It is so hypoxic to live with regrets, it hurts more than a breakup. I am getting short of time so I wana say to myself that right now it is not a perfect time to talk about these things. I want to take these secrets with me either dead or alive. My heart is crying cause pain of regrets broke me a lot.
Well, in the upcoming 4 years or on the next leap year 2028 you don't know how things will be, but I can guess about them. Well I don't want to loose these 4 years like the past 4 years. I want to utilize them a lot so that I won't have new regrets for the upcoming years. I don't want to have regrets in this new life. The new life that the past 4years have gave me. I know how regrets tear you apart so to present me it is a request from me to please please please not waste these 4 years. Please study well and attain that goal of mine. So that you will say I learned from the regrets. Isn't it ok to let regrets be source of inspiration. I will work hard to not let myself be a waste.
Btw If I lived then I will be 24 years old in 2028 hahaaa. I would have got to know more and more about new things. My perceptive might have changed, my thoughts might have changed. I might have meet new people and I would have learned a lot. Hahaa my degree would be done by that time and thank God I would be 24 and not 28. I have in safe zone. I won't have to get to talk about things about marriage. To be very honest I have never been someone who likes marriage. If it would have been my rule I would never marry someone. I just want to earn hounurable life, be best doctor, help people and poor and needy and yaaa travel the world as much as I can. And the at the end die. But yaaa sometimes when I think about my background of past generations and the hardwork I am doing I think marriage is good so as to continue a great generation and yaaa when my mother scolds me I think atleast marriage is good option for girls cause someone out there would take care of them hahahaahaa. I love you so much dearest mother and yaaa father tooo. My whole family. Don't mind it I just say it when u scold me hahaaa. Anyways this marriage thing throw it to dustbin. Bye bye marriage. I want to be with my parents, brothers and grandparents everytime. And say goodbye when I die. I love you people for eternity.
So yaaa where was I hahaha I always pray to Almighty to keep my paternal grandparents and my maternal grandmother fine. I want then to be by my side. I really don't know how to explain them but they are the sweetest people I have ever seen. They belong to different century ending 19th Or mid 20th I guess. They are so so so humbel, kind hearted and they have really humanity. They are just people that Almighty sent as a blessing. My world and everything. I don't think andbi never imagined living without them. I always pray that as long as I am alive they stay with alive with me. I want them to witness every happy moment of my life. I am want then to watch me growing every day. Please Almighty don't take them away from me. I love them a lot.
Of course the world will get advanced a lot in upcoming 4years. What an interesting thing. By the way I used rose water and aloe vera jel on face yesterday my mother said today you have the ugliest face among us. Look what you have done to your face. You like scratched wood. I swear she is lying I saw myself in mirror I has just one pimple and that too so small. I have soft face. But hheeeee she is like your face looks like a donkey. And I am like momy that's not makeup that's nutrition to face. I laughed and kept zipped mouth.
I hope I make a lot of great memories with my collegemates and friends. Since I know these years won't long so long so I will try my best to not hurt people be my juniors or seniors. I will try my best to make my besties laugh. Cause it is memories that last.
Well dear me, take care we will meet next leap year, I mean we will talk about upcoming 4 years in next leap year. Till then do as I said. Make regrets your source of inspiration so that next time you will be more careful with every step. I know whenever you remember past days you will be sad and your heart will ace but late on you will get to know there was something best in this too. Someone said " When you get what you want, that God's direction, when you don't get what you want, that's God's protection.
Quote by Shannon L. Alder
© reminisce
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