Once upon a time when I was growing up with my family at emahlathini near the river then u mama became pregnant of her second child mbalenhle things drastically changed at home because ma was now pregnant on the other side dad is not working this became a hard trauma to mom therefore it lead her to start thinking of getting a job in order to assist her husband and household where she can ha'ke mom left to Johannesburg then u baba a hlala emakhaya taking care of his livestock (yet he knew nothing about profiting from the wealthy under his watch) there comes a time when mom called dad sharing the excitement of getting a job as a domestic worker (reckoned she was so excited now that she'll be able to assist where she can) little did she know that her husband is not really pleased now that he thought she was too incompetent to do anything however he wanted her to be at home taking care of him,his household but he didn't make it known to ma that he's not happy he just went around telling people u kuthi u mama ak'hloniphi from there he started cheating on mom with several ladies telling them "he's no longer married to u mama which then means he's a free man to everyone umushado wakhe Kade wa phela ngoba Lo mfazi ng'mshadile u jole nenye Indoda then later became pregnant of another man's child while staying my house" this made everyone to feel sorry for baba lapha u mama u Sebenza kanzima u kusiza u baba kodwa aku bonakali konke ku baba haike after few months of mom working she then got a leave at work now that the pregnancy period was due which created a better chance for her to come back at home and finally be with her family until she gets back to work when mom arrived at home people and neighbours started calling her name's gossiping about "umfolokazi eng'hloniphi u muyeni wakhe ng'pha uzithelwe ng'ngani yenye Indoda" that's what they thought of ma now that dad goes around saying things about her but guess what she was ignorant enough to listen to what they're saying of her nothing triggered her to ask the reason why they are speaking so ill of her until one of her friends mama ka nozipho visited her for a get together with her best friend uvele amu buza nge mahemu-hemu she's hearing of ma that
"she left her husband for another man at JHB and the baby she's carrying is not even his now she's back apologising to dad because the man she cheated with dumped her and the pregnancy"
(haibo!!!! u mama wa greatly astonished to hear such about herself and marriage) but you know how married woman behave once you say something that's not aligned with their expectations you automatically become a bad person therefore she didn't believe u mama ka nozipho u vele amuthuka nje
Mangobese: Wena mama ka nozipho Kade nda'bona le Ndaba Uno mona ngoba mina ng'shadile and hleli kamunandi ne-ndoda yam that's why you're telling me lies about my husband you want me to get angry and finally leave this household just like u baba ka Nozipho akushile hamba mufazi ndin soze ni-lunge m'na yam endoda ng'yathanda Qaa suk'la (said this with a disgusting face showing ma ka nozipho the door she used to get in)
U mama ka Nozipho was in great pain to hear her friend insulting and mocking her in this manner she instantly stood up and left in a shock. In the evening u baba came back home and found his food well prepared just the way he likes it
Mr Ngobese: Hau! Hau! Hau! sthandwa Sam ng'yabonga this is what makes me to love you more (blazing smiles all over his face)
Mangobese: hmmm baba yazi nawe ng'yakuthanda ka khulu futhi.... kodwa sne nkinga baba.
Mr Ngobese: Nkinga? u khuluma ngan mangobese?
Mangobese: U mama ka nozipho was here in the morning telling me that she heard people saying we're divorced because I cheated on you and later became pregnant of another man's child instead of you that's the reason why I left to JHB thereafter came back to you because the guy deserted me.
Mr Ngobese: Hokay!!!! so u mama ka nozipho u hamba a khuluma amanga ngam lo'fazi u funani kim? Nawe wa hlala nae la m'zini wam u lalela amanga ngam?
Mangobese: it's not like that my love that's why I told her where to get off,I trust you .. I know what we share is way more valuable than all these things people are saying of us.

(hey u baba became so happy now that ma believes him.)
Mr Ngobese: S'didi se'fazi( he calmly said this in his heart then smiled at mom)
The very same time he hugged and kissed her passionately undressed her then do the do xxx to nurture the baby then time came for ma to go at the clinic for check up little did she knew that her whole world is about to instantly shatter after undergoing several tests
Doctor:Dora Ngobese (calling her name out loud)
Mangobese: I'm the one doctor.
Doctor: Please come in mangobese and take a sit.
Mangobese: Ng'yabonga dokotela .
Doctor: Mangobese how will you react if you happen to know you're HIV +?
Mangobese: Hau dokotela m'na no-ngulazi soze! It will never happen to me because I have never cheated on my husband neither did he we're faithful to one another and I have never made any contact with an infected person so I'm safe (with a smile on her face)
The doctor was greatly moved now that Mangobese is HIV+
Doctor: hmmmm Mangobese your results are no longer in a good condition we've traced a virus in your blood of HIV/AIDS ....
While the doctor was still explaining the results mom hysterically laughed at the doctor
Mangobese: it's not possible, there has to be a mistake perhaps you mixed my results with that of someone else
Doctor: Mangobese these are accurate results we have never made a mistake like this in this hospital therefore as much as it pains me but you've to start with your treatment as soon as possible to protect the baby and suppress the virus in you through ARVs.
Now it sounded much more better and louder than before it was as if the ground can open up and swallow her walls are now sliding in towards her it's as if she can get up and start chasing the unknown....Fear,anger and terror filler her much unanswerable questions are popping up nonstop deep in thoughts bitting her lower lip
Mangobese: How did this happen to me ,I've never cheated on my husband before neither did he or maybe there's something I don't know of? (Tears rapidly rolled down on her face,losing it all felt like going crazy ) m'na ngine ngulazi ka njani? what will I tell my husband? what will the world think of me? Tjo ng'zophelelaphi ? what about my job? this is the end of the road for me people don't get healed of this HIV virus,they usually die early before their time hey bakithi what happened to me? which sin did I commit to deserve this kind of punishment? it's better I die there's no reason for me to live this will do justice to my unborn baby but what about lethu my first born Eish!!!!
Doctor: Hello! Hello! Hello Mangobese u right?
Mangobese: hweeeee dokotela give me my prescription so I can leave!
Doctor: but you can't just leave Mangobese,we have to counsel you.
Mangobese: what? what will Counseling do to me? will it take away this HIV ? will it make me feel okay? I don't think so (pointing fingers at the doctor swearing) please do what you're paid for than to tell me this rubbish mxm.
Doctor: haike these are your medication and procedure but I still suggest you get counseling.
Ma just left unannounced then departed home with a long sad face ,she didn't even cook..... She just went straight to her bedroom without saying a word and cried herself to sleep

I had to do everything for her since she had no strength to do anything Afterall the pressure is becoming too much to withstand now that I'm placed in position whereby I can't ask nor say anything cause you know how elders are "you are not supposed to question them rather wait for them to ask for your opinion" being at a point whereby everything is evident enough for you to even ask that's how awkward it was that day I decided to chill alone since mom is not okay until dad arrived around half nine at night (21:30)

Mr Ngobese: Lethu! u phi u mama wakho Wena?

I had to tell him that ma is asleep,she locked herself inside the main bedroom since noon and she's not saying any word at all
Then dad went to the bedroom to check up on ma

Mr Ngobese: Mangobese Vula sthandwa Sam it's me.
Ma just opened the door and went straight to bed no usual welcome for dad it's bad indeed anyways ask no questions and hear no lies. At midnight dad woke mom up to enquire of her sadness
Mr Ngobese: what's wrong my love?
Mangobese: Baba can I ask you something?
Mr Ngobese: Anything my love,I'll help what is it?
Mangobese: Baba have you been cheating on me?
Mr Ngobese: Heeh!!!! Why do you say so?Are you now listening to people?
Mangobese:Baba I will ask you for the last time now,HAVE____ __YOU____BEEN__CHEATING_____ON___ME?
(a black strong woman full of bitterness aroused)
Mr Ngobese:No,I have never cheated on you actually I'm the one who should be asking you who left me and made it seem as if I am a useless husband perhaps you got someone there and forgot about me that's why you decided to come back home so I don't suspect a thing well I am not a fool mfazi.
Mangobese:ohh so you think I have been cheating heh who'll cheat with a pregnant woman? can you cheat with a married pregnant woman can you? You know I think people were right about your cheating.
Mr Ngobese: Hau mangobese u khuluma Ngan manje you're now becoming too disrespectful.
Mangobese: ohh then explain what the virus is doing in my blood I funan Kim? how did I become infected if I didn't cheat neither did you?