there was a boy, who everyone knew well, very well liked , very well dressed high class family, he was even polite, he liked a Tooheys after work and his girl by his side, hearing the kids stories, and his girls demands he did what ever she said just to keep her at hand, he loved every little damn thing about her , the way her eyes went Chinese when ever she laughed or smiled the way every guy wanted her and somehow she didn't know why, he loved her hair and the amount of time she would spend to make sure she looked good, cos behinds closed doors he spent just as many hours doing the same but not a soul knew how many times he would click his fingers wink at him self in the mirror fingers pointing in a gun position, he loved his family with his all gave anything and everything just to make then smile, on the outside he seemed so perfect someone to admire bright and funny he was the man of the hour at every party laugh so contagious I can hear it now, smile from ear to ear how could any one know the demons he sure feared, I couldn't see it , she refused to notice ,all his friends didn't know ,how could they?! he wouldn't ever show, he was dieing inside each time he made a joke, made all of us smile, lost in tears of laughter cos he was the funniest man I swear would give anything to see his face again to hear his voice just one more time, I can't believe what I woke up to I can't believe what happened that night,Tuesday March 12th you took ur own life nearly 3yrs on idk if I can survive I really miss your jokes I miss seeing your smile U was the best brother in law, I really need you now, and I want to know why, why I was the only one not to get a good bye you pulled up my drive Sunday night handed her a smoke for me I wish I knew it was the last one of recieve from you I wouldn't of smoked it I would've framed that shit, you spent Saturday night drinking with henry I know you needed to really say goodbye to him you know how much U meant to him how much of an impact U had on him he really looked up to U man he wanted to be just like U, since U and Sam started dating 15yrs ago U became the brother we never had the one we always wanted U was so fuckiin funny how did U leave so early *cheers to 30yrs* how did we miss all the signs I saw the change in U you had gone kinda quiet but Sam insisted thats just who U was now I thought U was holding a grudge against me secretly you know for mine and Sam's latest fight 🙄but to hear what U told Henry when U drank that Saturday night I wish U would've told me when U saw me on Sunday I wish U would've let me know you was proud and how much you loved the person I am now how U felt U had ur sister back to hear that made me smile and cry all at the same time wish I knew what U was planning I wish U would've said good bye before U took that cord and tide that knot how did u take that step how did U know it was ur time to go when u left this world late Tuesday night I wish U was here I wish I knew all the pain U kept hidden. I wish I knew all the pain that U held with in the final thing that had driven you,what took ur light and brank darkness to your world , gained your strength stolen your soul don't worry bro I got you now, I'll make sure your memory stays alive I love you bro for eternity this shit don't die once I do, I will see you again in the after life maybe it will be better then this world, I don't know but please stay by my side and show me more signs that ur here and ur alright please let me know that U leaving wasn't for nothing even though I'm mad U didn't say goodbye I'm not mad at U for leaving cos bro I understand why...




RIP
ANTHONY BOYLE
til we meet again I love you bro best brother in law in the fuckiin world


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