It was no love it was lust it was not a feeling to be proud of... I hated every second by her and then I loved it out of nowhere....
I was sick and tired of our attitudes colliding like explosions... She hated anything I liked and I hated everything she admired....
I hated thinking of going home to her and then I hated her not being around.... I couldn't be the person she really loved.... She tried to treat me like if I were him... I caught onto it and I knew she had no love for me... I made her angry when I decided to leave and she stopped me from walking out.... She punched me in the face and then hit me til my air came out my lungs... I was sad and just not happy I wanted to leave but she refused... She apologized and asked if I were still walking out.... I cried and cried and gripped my fist with anger... I got up and she blocked the door saying she'd lie to the cops if I walked out so I could be arrested and harassed again... My mind and heart weren't there anymore all I could feel was disgust and hatred... I couldn't do anything but live with hurt and regret burning in my gut....

Bad vibes took over my emotions I didn't want to smile I didn't want to do anything I felt stuck I felt like death was the only way out now....

No one cares about a man or his feelings they don't care about his thoughts no one...
I prayed and I pray...
These eyes that glow in the dark are the only things that hear my dreadful call for help...
Bad vibes no one cares
I want to run away I feel like I can't I feel like I don't deserve a grave but to be free as ashes and stars in the sky .....
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