Hurt
Sadness
Pain
Hopeless
Dear grandfather
I miss you so much, I honestly don't know if it's you I miss or I'm just in a messed up mood, these days I feel sad, hurt, and alone and I take it out on others. Well, I wasn't going to do so but I'm just being brutally honest like some people always want you to do something for them and it's not the reverse. I feel hurt when I realize I'm always alone and sometimes people make me realize it more. They say in bubbly, I'm happy, I'm always laughing but deep down I'm a sad and lonely girl alone in a messed up world. Put on a smile they say but I'm not in the mood honestly, I just want to be real, of that makes me push people away, if I will always be alone. It's okay I'm used to it. By the way how is it in heaven one day I want to meet god too. I know he's looking out for me but I need him to help bring happiness to my heart.
© Cece