(Me to God)
-Why are you testing me this much?
-you have never ever given me
things that i want!
-I am frustrated!
God-Lets go in a time travel!
me-yeah! lets go and see how many
things you snatched from me!
God-Fine! Lets see!

12.7.2009
(home!)
A little girl impatiently waiting for her mom and dad to come!
Eww! whats this mumma?
who is this little one?
mom-your baby brother!
(getting angry about why he is in my moms lap!)
Me-Because of him my mom loved me less and loved him more!
God- See apart from the emotional things, hes your brother ...he got to have your back when no one supports you, you cant share everything with your parents! thats why there are siblings! like your brother! you can befriend him! and see!

2.2.2010
(schools playground)
Hey! someone called out!
A newbie...!
Hi i am supriya!
-im prativa!
Lets become friends!
(we lost contact after that)
me-she was my very good friend but why did we lost contact after that?
God-Thats the rule and destiny!
You cant force life to make people stay in it!

16.3.2011
(Dinning)
Dancing holding tight to my new bag!
mom- why you are being so happy?
my new bag! my new bag!
Mom- You would be going to another school from next session!
(Anger!)
me-Why i had to leave my old friends?
god-Thats the rule of nature!
inorder to grow strong, sometimes you have to let go of old ones to welcome new ones!

10.6.2015
(school entrance)
Take care beta!
obey the teachers!
You are going to stay in boarding!
me-wont i be too alone here?
mom- No baby! you wd have so many friends here!
(blurred vision of my parents leaving
the gate)

me-why my parents left me alone at such a young age?
God-Its the process to make you strong and independent!
They wanted you to take your responsibilities on your own!
Take decisions on your own!
And to priotise your own needs!

15.8.2016
teacher- Why is your homework incomplete?
me-sorry mam! i could not understand it!
teacher- you are just irresponsible!
(Crying on empty corners)

me-What abou the problems and challenges i faced?
God-These problems are nothing but when in life you will grow up and face more troubles these moments will give you strength that once in a young age you did faced problems with courage!

1.9.2017
mam- well done supriya!
me-Thank you mam!
(to the whole class)
Everyone should learn from her!
she recalled the whole tense!
(praise!)

Time passes to 11th!
2021-22

Sir- whats your problem with math?
me-its too difficult sir!
i cant do thus!
sir-if you believe in yourself and work harder you can do better!
Will try my best sir!
Got pretty good marks in 12th!

College!
20th August 2023
Mam- here is your room...your roomates!
Them-hi!
me-krishna!
them-khusi & Gunu
Lets sleep early tommorow is the
first day of college!
(first day went kinda well)

2nd sept 2023
me-That senior was quite impressing!
rommies-(laughing)you know his name?
me-nope guyss!
rommies-well we will find!

5th sept 2023
(me sitting in the class room with my heart beating at 1000 times per seconds!)
(Him sitting to the chair next to me)
me- acting like i dont care!
Eww! he is holding a girl seniors hand!!
I starred at him!
And him immediately releasing her hand!
Someone sang a song!
You are pictured in my heart,
spreading like perfume all night!
tell me in signs! are you the one?
I want you evey second!
I search you every second!
My hearts says it loves you
every second!❤️
He looking at me throughout the song!
(Best day )

8th sept night!
(me crying)
Im not good enough for you!
im sorry i should not have said that!
him-why are you saying like that?
lets give us a chance!

30th sept 23
me- Are you angry?(holding him)
him-nope! it just hurted me! so..
Me-I am very sorry!!
him-please dont say sorry!
(Gently toching my cheeks)

16th oct 23
me- it was my fault! sorry you got
scolded because of me!
him-Are let it go!
listen! we wont breakup but
dont say this to anyone!
me-Okay!
(Happy to get someone like him)

12th nov 23
(on call)
me-why are you avoiding me?
him-please dont disturb me! live your life happily and leave me!
(ended)

Me-why this happened god?
Thats the first step of detachment and moving on!
Accepting the real truth of life!
"when you think you can only live relying on a relationship thats when universe will take it away"
Not because you are not worth it but because you have to learn to live with and fall in love with yourself!


3 Months passed
(college campus)
me-Are uh really angry?
him-dont ask me anything!
me-why you are not talking to me?
him- i havent denied you to talk!
He left!
(me jumping wd happiness)

3rd may
(on call)
him-Why are you texting me everywhere!
me-sorry! but...
him-See you may not have any self respect but i do have!
I cant choose you over my family!
you know what you dont have manners!
No one loves you!
You dont deserve to be loved!
(crying)

Me- what is this now?
What he said was all the truth!
I was not worth it!
God- See this is the problem!
He loves himself and his family!
He is full of himself !
But you are not!
You forgot who you are to impress him!
you made your heart a suffocated place for your own soul to live!
then think while you on your
own is running from you why will anyone stay?
If you wont love yourself ?
how can you manage to fall in love with others?
In this universe you only have to love your own self before anything or anyone!
"Your core is your truth, everything outside is just a bonus"
You cant rely on bonuses for lifetime!
So is he!
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(Thank you for reading till the end❤️)
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