I was never in a relationship before I meet him. But I was never ready to give up the need to love and be loved in return. So I decided to give online dating a chance and signed up on a dating app. You could not see the face of the person you were talking to. Bur I found myself really enjoying our conversations. We were talking from around two am until the sunrise. He was charming, funny, and genuinely interested in getting to know me. We quickly hit it off, exchanging stories about our lives and sharing our interests. I could feel myself falling for him, even though I didn't know how his face looked like.
After a few months of talking, we decided it was time to meet in person. We met in a neighborhood, and my heart skipped a beat when I saw him walking towards me. Even though he was not the kind of person who would show his enthusiasm, I could see in his face that he was happy to see me from the way he was trying to approach me.
As we talked, we both felt the connection growing stronger. We both felt like we had found someone special in each other.
Over the next few months, me and Andrew continued to see each other, going on dates and spending time together. We explored new places, discovered and shared interests. We both knew that we had found something rare and special bond that was meant to be.
Until he tried to kissed me. It was not how I imagined it, our first day was not supposed to go like that. But I shut my voice off because such special connection is hard to find.
All was going great until that day, something broke into my heart and I pushed him away.
It was not that he did something wrong.
But it was the way he was holding on to me.
It was too much for my soul.
His love, that unconditional love sparing openly through his heart, I never felt from anyone before.
But it was all too much. Conquer to the way I was feeling about myself.
I was used to being alone. Even though I had not succeed much all those years that passed me by, I was enjoying my own company, my own successes even my own failures alone. I didn't want to be someone's burden. So I pushed him and I pushed him and I pushed him as hard as I could until the day I made him turn away.

It was a beautiful sunny day that day I was driving my car and I was heading to buy some lunch for myself. But a car was crossing and blocked my way and we crashed.
I don't remember much from that day.
Everything is blure inside my head, I only get flashes and pictures from that traumatic day.
I open my eyes in this...