People often praised me, of how strong I am, of how high my EQ is, of how I am not affected by rumors or criticism or any toxic words that points at my personality and of my whole being as a member of society. When I heard them say that to me, I don't feel happy at all or feel obligated to say thank you's as all of those words of praises came from the self-criticisms I have said to myself everyday, of the flaws I have always remind myself, of the hurtful thoughts I always think about how much of a failure I am. They just don't know anything so I just smile at them, for not knowing what is true and how much of a negative person I am and of how I am faking everything.

© rrevi

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