Love was never on my plate and I was foolish enough to hope again. Hope is such a dangerous thing, isnt it?

How does love fade away overnight?
Perhaps, you'd know that better.
You said some things, things that drew a beautiful pattern of damage in my soul.
Your words ensured that whenever I look myself in the mirror, I would do so with despise and loathe.
Until yesterday, you spoke of your love with such passion that it made me go weak knees
I expressed my gratitude to the Almighty above, the one I had lost faith upon, years ago.

I had been so unsure of love.
I was a troubled teenager when I last had the taste of a relationship.
I didnt fall for you immediately, nor did I believe I ever would.
But my love for you was like a flower in a pot,
It took time to grow but it grew strong,
A product of your patience and care.
We have had our differences,
I wasn't very receptive to begin with,
But things changed, and by the time they did, you changed too.
You said you ran out of love for me,
At first I thought, maybe I took too long and it was too late.
I cried my heart out,
mind you, I hadn't shed a single tear since the time I left home.
I let the tears flow until they all dried.
Until i saw reason.

I see the silver lining now,
I see why I was so cautious about love the entire time
Maybe I anticipated this,
Maybe I knew all along that your love meant nothing more than a hollow pit,
A pit I almost fell.
now I see the silver lining
I now know better than to fall for sweet words and vague promises,
I have run out of tears now, run out of questions.
I will carry the burden of blame on my shoulders
I have enough reasons to loathe myself, but you'll not be one of them.

Maybe I'll find love someday, maybe I won't.
But atleast I know now where I shouldn't be looking.


-rpg