Will you wake me up from a dream where I'm sawing my wrists off ?
A nightmare where this pen is strapped through my tongue..
In a pitch dark pool of blood and flesh and mud and snakes while I'm tied to a sarsen sinking deep and deep into this endless despair losing all my hope ..
You'll have to call me by name and it will be all over like a dream of course but if you forget me, I'll be down there breathing this tar in, filling my lungs to brim yet not dead. I'm waiting to be called into waking world but the sufferings is true in the worst of ways possible, the suffocation is endless, leaving me the space for one tenth of a breath at a time and hold it with for three time of one breath. If not, the span of inhaling keeps decreasing and the time to hold it increases. ..

The keepers here enjoy the suffering like I'm put on display of some sort. They can see through this dark and I'm able to hear them as they keep chanting give up on you..., give up on you... Let the hope die and become one with the endless and that way, my suffering will be over for eternity but I can't seem to give up on you. I can't seem to give up on that smile of yours.. i don't know how long it has been since I've been submerged within these confinement but to me it has been eternity of endless dark, slytherin through my walls of my existence and into my dreams.
I'm not willing to give to this suffering, enduring till this body holds.
Will you wake me up from that nightmare?
© TofN

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