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Another Life
[This is a fictional narrative short story.]
I know it's very weak of me to think this way but I have been harboring this sense of vulnerability for quite a while now and I have also acknowledged the naivety in believing that I could possibly encounter my soulmate in my youthful and spirited state. Yet, a glimmer of hope still persisted within me.
I have been having these strange recurring dreams, where the same enigmatic figure appeared without fail, a figure of a man. Initially I dismissed them as mere figments of my imagination but an inexplicable sensation began to stir within me. It hinted at the possibility that this mysterious presence might be someone I had encountered in the past, perhaps even a former lover. While the existence of parallel dimensions remains a matter of belief rather than certainty, I couldn't help but entertain the notion that this could be the fateful encounter I had longed for.
November 09, 2004.
The dreams start to appear more vividly the past few days and somehow, I'm starting to believe that they are merely just dreams but a precognition of something that I had long been hoping for.
It's like I can feel him in my senses- his presence, I can already picture him: A humble man who looks wonderful, sweet and kind. He seems tall, has attractive cheekbones, dark blonde hair and captivating green eyes and wears stylish square glasses, he exudes nothing but charm and elegance. He's the one I'm searching for, in this vast city that I have just arrived in.
However, my purpose in coming here extends beyond the search for him, he could be real and he could be not. I can never know so to cover all bases, I seize the opportunity to seek a stable job to sustain my living expenses in this sprawling city.
Resting on a park bench for a while, a peculiar sense of familiarity engulfs me. It feels as if I had seen this place before although it is quite hard for me to explain how and when, as it is my first time coming here.
Perhaps it is a fragment from a past life, it must be. That is the only logical explanation that resonates with me in the present moment.
December 20, 2005.
I'm starting to wonder if coming here was a mistake. City life is tough. Despite securing a job as a housekeeper at a motel, I'm still trying to convince myself it'll be worth it. But will it? This vast city, with its countless people, makes me doubt if I'll ever meet him, unless it's purely by luck and chance. My self-doubt can only grow stronger.
January 01, 2005
I got home early from a night's out with the friends I have made from around here, it is New Year's too. I longed to be with my family at this time of the year but then I asked myself, what family? With parent's divorce, siblings taken apart, dad being a drunkard as he have always been, it has only been difficult to take in. I wish I could say that staying with uncle (my dad's brother) was any help in making me feel better but no, unfortunately not. He comes home with new and unfamiliar women each day and they would loiter around the house. It was a tough decision for me to make but I had to leave.
But hey! Cheers to a new Year. I really hope that things work out for me this year and I also hope that I can find him soon.
January 02, 2005
Last night, I had a dream about him again, looking dashing in a tuxedo, offering me a glass of wine and saying, 'Cheers to your exciting journey ahead.' It gave me a sense of hope, he must be getting closer to my reach. Although the memory of his voice is slowly fading now, I just wish I knew how long it'll take me to hear it again and not in a dream but in reality. In one specific dream, he had hinted that he lives in this city, but didn't give an exact location of where he stays and I wish that he did because I cannot wait to see him.
February 28, 2005
The dreams of him have stopped appearing for a while now and I'm starting to think about how foolish it was of me to be getting lost in the hopes of finding someone who has only ever appeared in my dreams, over and over again.
For a while I...
I know it's very weak of me to think this way but I have been harboring this sense of vulnerability for quite a while now and I have also acknowledged the naivety in believing that I could possibly encounter my soulmate in my youthful and spirited state. Yet, a glimmer of hope still persisted within me.
I have been having these strange recurring dreams, where the same enigmatic figure appeared without fail, a figure of a man. Initially I dismissed them as mere figments of my imagination but an inexplicable sensation began to stir within me. It hinted at the possibility that this mysterious presence might be someone I had encountered in the past, perhaps even a former lover. While the existence of parallel dimensions remains a matter of belief rather than certainty, I couldn't help but entertain the notion that this could be the fateful encounter I had longed for.
November 09, 2004.
The dreams start to appear more vividly the past few days and somehow, I'm starting to believe that they are merely just dreams but a precognition of something that I had long been hoping for.
It's like I can feel him in my senses- his presence, I can already picture him: A humble man who looks wonderful, sweet and kind. He seems tall, has attractive cheekbones, dark blonde hair and captivating green eyes and wears stylish square glasses, he exudes nothing but charm and elegance. He's the one I'm searching for, in this vast city that I have just arrived in.
However, my purpose in coming here extends beyond the search for him, he could be real and he could be not. I can never know so to cover all bases, I seize the opportunity to seek a stable job to sustain my living expenses in this sprawling city.
Resting on a park bench for a while, a peculiar sense of familiarity engulfs me. It feels as if I had seen this place before although it is quite hard for me to explain how and when, as it is my first time coming here.
Perhaps it is a fragment from a past life, it must be. That is the only logical explanation that resonates with me in the present moment.
December 20, 2005.
I'm starting to wonder if coming here was a mistake. City life is tough. Despite securing a job as a housekeeper at a motel, I'm still trying to convince myself it'll be worth it. But will it? This vast city, with its countless people, makes me doubt if I'll ever meet him, unless it's purely by luck and chance. My self-doubt can only grow stronger.
January 01, 2005
I got home early from a night's out with the friends I have made from around here, it is New Year's too. I longed to be with my family at this time of the year but then I asked myself, what family? With parent's divorce, siblings taken apart, dad being a drunkard as he have always been, it has only been difficult to take in. I wish I could say that staying with uncle (my dad's brother) was any help in making me feel better but no, unfortunately not. He comes home with new and unfamiliar women each day and they would loiter around the house. It was a tough decision for me to make but I had to leave.
But hey! Cheers to a new Year. I really hope that things work out for me this year and I also hope that I can find him soon.
January 02, 2005
Last night, I had a dream about him again, looking dashing in a tuxedo, offering me a glass of wine and saying, 'Cheers to your exciting journey ahead.' It gave me a sense of hope, he must be getting closer to my reach. Although the memory of his voice is slowly fading now, I just wish I knew how long it'll take me to hear it again and not in a dream but in reality. In one specific dream, he had hinted that he lives in this city, but didn't give an exact location of where he stays and I wish that he did because I cannot wait to see him.
February 28, 2005
The dreams of him have stopped appearing for a while now and I'm starting to think about how foolish it was of me to be getting lost in the hopes of finding someone who has only ever appeared in my dreams, over and over again.
For a while I...
