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that moment my ❤️ skipped a beat
I still remember the day I saw you for the first time. that day a little heart who knew nothing but her childhood games....... skipped a beat. that little heart was mine. that day 13 year old me fell in a first sight love with 13 year old you and this heart skipped a beat for the first time.
I remember after that first meet you disappeared and I did everything that a little girl could do to search for u but didn't find you. after around 2 months you came back again n that moment I saw you again..... my heart ❤️ skipped a beat.
I remember the moment when one of our mutual friend came to me and said that "you like me" and my heart ❤️ skipped a beat.
the next day you came to me and asked if we can be friends. that day we spoke to each other for the first time and yeah again my heart ❤️ skipped a beat.
After 2 months of friendship the day you proposed me 5th May, 2013 and I literally had butterflies within me. I managed myself somehow and said "yes" and suddenly you hugged me so tight. yeah that was our first hug. my first hug with my first love. yes that day my heart ❤️ skipped a few more beats.
I remember after somedays of us being together, both of us used to think about our marriage. that was so cute that two 13 year old lovebirds are worried about their marriage but it had a different feeling and I can never forget it.
19th July,2014 the day we had our first kiss. That day my heart didn't skip a beat it just stopped for a while to feel the love we were sharing.
I remember the day I went to your house. we were alone n suddenly we started dancing together holding hands.... yeah that day my heart ❤️ again skipped a beat.
It's been more than 7 years and still every time I meet you every time u look at me with that smile on your face everytime you touch me or even look at me with love.... yeah my heart skips a hell lot of beats. people say everything changes with time but the feeling that I had when you were around me as a 13 year old kid is the same as a 20 year old girl.
In these 7 years of relationship we fought a lot. everytime we used to fight and don't speak to each other for months I used to miss u so much and the day we start to talk again the cheesy lines that u used to say..... that makes my heart❤️ skip a beat.
I remember once after a fight when u were trying to convince me u said "hume toh shaadi krni thi naa baat nai kregi toh shaadi kese karenge" n that stole my heart ❤️ again and it skipped a beat.
my love for you keeps growing day by day everything is same except that we are not together anymore. It's been 6 months that we broke up and the thought that we are not going to talk again makes me sad af everyday. Yesterday I saw u after a long time. looking at u, my anger just disappeared. I really wanted to hug u tight to tell you how much I have missed you. To ask you if we can solve this.... to beg you to come back again.
But then I remembered that question that you asked me "tune mereliye kiya kya hai aj tak" that question that broke my heart that forced me to break our relationship that stopped me to go back to you again. I left all my friends for you. Everytime you did something that hurt me I used to ignore it just to save our relationship and then u asked this.
I can never go to you again.
that's true that It's not easy to stay without you but still I don't want you back.
I want to talk a hell lot of things with you still don't wanna talk to you
I want to stare at you for the rest of my life still don't wanna see you again in my whole life
© ipsita sahu