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When I was 10 years old, I used to defined my parents as my heroes, my knight, my light, my buddy, my bestfriend, my diary, my comforter, and my rest.
I never thought that the day will come where they always fighting, shouting at each other, and yes each day I feel like they are not my parents anymore.
"I smell a girl's perfume in your shirt! You have the guts to lie to me?!" My mother shouted and I am here in my room, trying to listen to every fight.
"You are fvcking paranoid! This is the reason why I wanted to leave you because of your mouth!" I close my eyes and I am the one who is in pain, their words that I never imagine that it will exist to the both of them.
Hate.
As I grow older I started to question things around me. At the age of 17 I found love and I am happy because I think I am free, they are okay with it because they are busy figting each other.
"You think this will be a good idea?" I said while looking at my boyfriend who is now on the top of me.
"Yes. If ever something happened to you, I promise that I will take my responsibility to you." He said and kissed me.
That day I never realized what I am doing. I don't know if it was wrong, all I just thought is I am free and happy. The happiness that I never found to my family.
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"What did I told you huh?! It's just a one time thing and look at you now! Pregnant! Is this the lesson I taught to you huh?!" I bite my lips and holding my PT tight. My mother and father is mad at me.
"I n-never realized that this will be h-happened and I know I lost my guard. It's just I f-fed up by the fights and I can see that you are not happy anymore.." I said while crying. They both look at me with teary eyes.
"But my Princess, this is not the way to escape the reality that me and your mom ended our relationship a long time ago.." He said and making me try to understand.
I faced the consequences of my idiot acts. I become a mother to a cute baby boy. I am happy, my mother supported me all through out and my father is dissappointed and I understand.
The older I get the more that I see that my parents aren't hero they're just like me. Maybe, they are here for me but they will never be my hero everytime.
Loving is hard it don't always work. It's just you who will try your best not to get hurt which is impossible. The older I get I realized many things about life. Ruining your life is not an escape to the reality and pain you were facing.
The more you get older, the more you realized that some things are better left unsaid and you will never seek for explaination because one day you will understand.
We maybe not understand everything when we are just a kid but sooner-- our life will make us feel how hard it was being a parent, being older.
So, treasure your memories as a kid because if you get old you will miss every single of it. We can't bring back the time we wasted.
© Skyler
I never thought that the day will come where they always fighting, shouting at each other, and yes each day I feel like they are not my parents anymore.
"I smell a girl's perfume in your shirt! You have the guts to lie to me?!" My mother shouted and I am here in my room, trying to listen to every fight.
"You are fvcking paranoid! This is the reason why I wanted to leave you because of your mouth!" I close my eyes and I am the one who is in pain, their words that I never imagine that it will exist to the both of them.
Hate.
As I grow older I started to question things around me. At the age of 17 I found love and I am happy because I think I am free, they are okay with it because they are busy figting each other.
"You think this will be a good idea?" I said while looking at my boyfriend who is now on the top of me.
"Yes. If ever something happened to you, I promise that I will take my responsibility to you." He said and kissed me.
That day I never realized what I am doing. I don't know if it was wrong, all I just thought is I am free and happy. The happiness that I never found to my family.
_____________
"What did I told you huh?! It's just a one time thing and look at you now! Pregnant! Is this the lesson I taught to you huh?!" I bite my lips and holding my PT tight. My mother and father is mad at me.
"I n-never realized that this will be h-happened and I know I lost my guard. It's just I f-fed up by the fights and I can see that you are not happy anymore.." I said while crying. They both look at me with teary eyes.
"But my Princess, this is not the way to escape the reality that me and your mom ended our relationship a long time ago.." He said and making me try to understand.
I faced the consequences of my idiot acts. I become a mother to a cute baby boy. I am happy, my mother supported me all through out and my father is dissappointed and I understand.
The older I get the more that I see that my parents aren't hero they're just like me. Maybe, they are here for me but they will never be my hero everytime.
Loving is hard it don't always work. It's just you who will try your best not to get hurt which is impossible. The older I get I realized many things about life. Ruining your life is not an escape to the reality and pain you were facing.
The more you get older, the more you realized that some things are better left unsaid and you will never seek for explaination because one day you will understand.
We maybe not understand everything when we are just a kid but sooner-- our life will make us feel how hard it was being a parent, being older.
So, treasure your memories as a kid because if you get old you will miss every single of it. We can't bring back the time we wasted.
© Skyler
