The other day, I said to Oyam my friend:

"Oyam, I can't number the times I've had to keep from picking my phone to say hi, after thinking a whole lot about you. I end up discouraged from reaching out to you because I keep wondering what exactly is on your mind concerning me, and how you'd take my saying "hi" if I say it.

You are one friend I'm watching slip away, with so much pain in my heart. It is so hard to bear, and I wish...