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My Cocaine Mom (chapter one)
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Just Writing This Story Tears Me Up....
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Mom had a bitter past with dad popping pills and sniffing cocaine was mom's only source of happiness.
The only business I grew up to find mom seriously doing was playing trick with different men for peanut change. Every night mom wears short revealing dresses to where I can't tell.... Too many nights she comes home with different irritating men that heaven knows I hate with passion.
Day after day mom was getting too deep with her cocaine shit that she hardly changes her hair or clothes, or even take a bath as use.
On a long run mom was getting skinny and too dry that she comes home without a man as used looking frustrated like her life depends on it.
She'll always complained about not having enough pills and cocaine to beckoned on and, when this happens, she lose it all......
She became very aggressive and annoying, to some extent that she behaves like a mentally healed lady.
I'll never forget how many times I've been talk down on and, humiliated because of mom's addiction.
Parents don't allow their children associate with me in my ends, school and, even church.
My extended family can't pretend to love me or mom, not even a little.
I had no friends, no siblings.
The world around me sees me as a nonentity
Daughter of a drug addict my identity
With my mom I knew no dignity....
Mom's every day attitude towards me was another episode of mystery...
will I say that a mother hates her own child?? even I myself can't tell what she really felt towards me. Every given day mom never stopped nagging about every little mistake, even if I'm doing the right thing, she's always seen flaws in everything I do or say. she never stopped beating me up like a notorious criminal..
She keeps telling me to grow fast that she's tired of using up her cocaine money to feed me instead of enjoying herself.
The main mystery started when I was send out of school for not paying tuition fees for 2 years. I became a school drop out at age 14 but that did not get deep into Mom. She was not worried instead she asked me to fellow her out at night to learn how to fish men. I wasn't surprise because she was tired of paying my bills like she always said.... I was speechless, confused and annoyed at the same time. Hours had passed the long waited night drew neared. Surprisingly mom came to me and asked me to prepare for our outing with so much happiness in her voice and eyes.
I said to myself that I will never let mom create sure jokes with my life.... This is the same life mom has been living like since I knew her and, I've seen no good and, she wants me her only child to live the same?? too many thoughts ran down my heavy mind. I've never disrespected my mom before but, if standing up for myself would be seen as such then, I can't help....
Mom came again the third time
Are you not ready??? you need to look very sharp oooo
hey my beautiful daughter
now you can pay all our bills
thank god you got pussy!!!..
I couldn't stop myself from thinking for moment that this woman must be mentally sick....
Mom I can't live a useless life as such.
I'll go to the market tomorrow and search what to do or sell so I could pay our bills... I went closer to her and hold her hand
Mom please stop trying to mislead me
I promise I will clean out all of our mess some day.
I promise you my sweet mom
please please stop!!!
She was speechless for a moment, before I could understand her she got wild and started nagging
You idiot!
how much are going to end in the market to pay our bills??
An ingreat you must be! I'm trying to show you how to make fat dou in no time and you're here talking about going to the market to suffer for a few penny that won't even buy my cocaine talk less to pay our bills?? How dare you disrespect me??
Your useless dad left us when you were just 3day old
You ingreat! This has been my only means of making you who you are today** I gave you life even when didn't deserve to live
Now you tryna diss me?uh??
How dare you think I'm misleading you??
Mom got pissed and left for her business as use, living me behind.
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© Minika Archibong
Just Writing This Story Tears Me Up....
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Mom had a bitter past with dad popping pills and sniffing cocaine was mom's only source of happiness.
The only business I grew up to find mom seriously doing was playing trick with different men for peanut change. Every night mom wears short revealing dresses to where I can't tell.... Too many nights she comes home with different irritating men that heaven knows I hate with passion.
Day after day mom was getting too deep with her cocaine shit that she hardly changes her hair or clothes, or even take a bath as use.
On a long run mom was getting skinny and too dry that she comes home without a man as used looking frustrated like her life depends on it.
She'll always complained about not having enough pills and cocaine to beckoned on and, when this happens, she lose it all......
She became very aggressive and annoying, to some extent that she behaves like a mentally healed lady.
I'll never forget how many times I've been talk down on and, humiliated because of mom's addiction.
Parents don't allow their children associate with me in my ends, school and, even church.
My extended family can't pretend to love me or mom, not even a little.
I had no friends, no siblings.
The world around me sees me as a nonentity
Daughter of a drug addict my identity
With my mom I knew no dignity....
Mom's every day attitude towards me was another episode of mystery...
will I say that a mother hates her own child?? even I myself can't tell what she really felt towards me. Every given day mom never stopped nagging about every little mistake, even if I'm doing the right thing, she's always seen flaws in everything I do or say. she never stopped beating me up like a notorious criminal..
She keeps telling me to grow fast that she's tired of using up her cocaine money to feed me instead of enjoying herself.
The main mystery started when I was send out of school for not paying tuition fees for 2 years. I became a school drop out at age 14 but that did not get deep into Mom. She was not worried instead she asked me to fellow her out at night to learn how to fish men. I wasn't surprise because she was tired of paying my bills like she always said.... I was speechless, confused and annoyed at the same time. Hours had passed the long waited night drew neared. Surprisingly mom came to me and asked me to prepare for our outing with so much happiness in her voice and eyes.
I said to myself that I will never let mom create sure jokes with my life.... This is the same life mom has been living like since I knew her and, I've seen no good and, she wants me her only child to live the same?? too many thoughts ran down my heavy mind. I've never disrespected my mom before but, if standing up for myself would be seen as such then, I can't help....
Mom came again the third time
Are you not ready??? you need to look very sharp oooo
hey my beautiful daughter
now you can pay all our bills
thank god you got pussy!!!..
I couldn't stop myself from thinking for moment that this woman must be mentally sick....
Mom I can't live a useless life as such.
I'll go to the market tomorrow and search what to do or sell so I could pay our bills... I went closer to her and hold her hand
Mom please stop trying to mislead me
I promise I will clean out all of our mess some day.
I promise you my sweet mom
please please stop!!!
She was speechless for a moment, before I could understand her she got wild and started nagging
You idiot!
how much are going to end in the market to pay our bills??
An ingreat you must be! I'm trying to show you how to make fat dou in no time and you're here talking about going to the market to suffer for a few penny that won't even buy my cocaine talk less to pay our bills?? How dare you disrespect me??
Your useless dad left us when you were just 3day old
You ingreat! This has been my only means of making you who you are today** I gave you life even when didn't deserve to live
Now you tryna diss me?uh??
How dare you think I'm misleading you??
Mom got pissed and left for her business as use, living me behind.
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© Minika Archibong
