loosing friends bacame my habit , being lonely was my habit , staying unloved was my habit, when someone started loving me.
I'm writing cause I'll never be able to tell you how much important you are for me .
..how much I adore you
the strangers out there , hope I'll be able to tell you how I'm feeling rn.


my two precious friends are strangers for me . I don't know who they are . infact , I don't know if they're my friends or not ..well anyways.
when i realised my importance in both of their life , i preferred isolation.
crying all day .. staying hungry .. etc etc ..
i can't even explain how I felt .
my teachers started pointing me out ..
"what happened","why're you sad","why have you become so quiet", I head it all day ..
Then I changed my seat , cause one of my classmate wanted to spend time with her bf but wasn't able to because of her friends and teachers .
So she sat with me , and behind us .. his bf .. and the topper .
we all became friends.. but still .. i wasn't sure if I wanted to stay with them or not.
I started hating making friends.. cause friendship always ends up in the worst way possible.

but , I started talking a bit , taking interest in surroundings , and helping others (which i stopped during that phase)...
topper was different. way to different than others ... his humor .. kindness and respect for girls made me feel good .
I hated males.. I never trusted any .
Any ...means any !
we became good friends.
I've never seen any topper like him for real . Maintaining balance amongst...