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The Lioness and The Lamb Chapter 4/pt 3
The Lioness and the Lamb Chapter Four/ Part 3
Catherine
While I accepted her proposal it was still the most uncomfortable and cruel request someone can make. Yet looking at her face and seeing those eyes filled with desperation made my heart bleed. I couldn't reject her not that I wanted to but what should happen now. How far did she go just for this one single moment of throwing herself at my feet hoping for a small chance at redeeming herself, a question I can't ask her not yet at least. Since we had come to this point it was all or nothing and I'm sure she has nothing left for living or even eating expenses. Just like that, she was my roommate and while the small apartment wasn't large it was enough for us to start with.
"So my room is over there which leaves you this one. It's a little smaller but it should work well enough."
"Are you sure about this, wouldn't this make things difficult for you?"
Do you even realize what was difficult for me to begin with, I never wanted this outcome. Would you be happy if I just forgot what we had and walked away, is that the person you think I am, or is that what you expected. Does it even matter anymore for either of us now.
"This is where we are now, while I agree it's not ideal but what can we do. Friends can share a living space after all. Besides look at you Jyn, you are like a shell of who you were. How can I tell you to fend for yourself after seeing how poorly that's going for you."
I wasn't trying to scold her or even try to control his she wants to live but this isn't who I fell in love with. The only part of her still alive is this clingy love that she managed to hide away from me randomly. Now it's here without the rest of her which is weird to say.
"Get a shower and ill get you some clothes to wear. You can use whatever you want in there and when you finish we will go eat."
She didn't argue or even joke just obediently obeyed like roles are reversed. It's so weird for me to see this but is she truly fine with this. As the sound of water started I searched everywhere for clothes that would fit her. Surprisingly I still remember her sizes and what she liked to wear most. Hell, her style at some point blended in with my own which makes this a little easier I guess. After collecting a towel and clothes for her I didn't even register our current relationship status and walked in. It's been a long time since I was her body but right now I feel nothing for her at all. This strikes my heart heavily as the realization washes over me that we may never go back to those times. Once everything is set down I exit without hesitation which brings reality even closer. It's hard to accept that I feel nothing after seeing her so bare, that's a pill ill never willingly swallow.
After she finished up and got dressed she looked as beautiful maybe even more so than before. Yet again nothing stirs inside of me which makes this even more confusing for me to accept. Do I want her back or do I just want to know that I still feel something for her, which is...
Catherine
While I accepted her proposal it was still the most uncomfortable and cruel request someone can make. Yet looking at her face and seeing those eyes filled with desperation made my heart bleed. I couldn't reject her not that I wanted to but what should happen now. How far did she go just for this one single moment of throwing herself at my feet hoping for a small chance at redeeming herself, a question I can't ask her not yet at least. Since we had come to this point it was all or nothing and I'm sure she has nothing left for living or even eating expenses. Just like that, she was my roommate and while the small apartment wasn't large it was enough for us to start with.
"So my room is over there which leaves you this one. It's a little smaller but it should work well enough."
"Are you sure about this, wouldn't this make things difficult for you?"
Do you even realize what was difficult for me to begin with, I never wanted this outcome. Would you be happy if I just forgot what we had and walked away, is that the person you think I am, or is that what you expected. Does it even matter anymore for either of us now.
"This is where we are now, while I agree it's not ideal but what can we do. Friends can share a living space after all. Besides look at you Jyn, you are like a shell of who you were. How can I tell you to fend for yourself after seeing how poorly that's going for you."
I wasn't trying to scold her or even try to control his she wants to live but this isn't who I fell in love with. The only part of her still alive is this clingy love that she managed to hide away from me randomly. Now it's here without the rest of her which is weird to say.
"Get a shower and ill get you some clothes to wear. You can use whatever you want in there and when you finish we will go eat."
She didn't argue or even joke just obediently obeyed like roles are reversed. It's so weird for me to see this but is she truly fine with this. As the sound of water started I searched everywhere for clothes that would fit her. Surprisingly I still remember her sizes and what she liked to wear most. Hell, her style at some point blended in with my own which makes this a little easier I guess. After collecting a towel and clothes for her I didn't even register our current relationship status and walked in. It's been a long time since I was her body but right now I feel nothing for her at all. This strikes my heart heavily as the realization washes over me that we may never go back to those times. Once everything is set down I exit without hesitation which brings reality even closer. It's hard to accept that I feel nothing after seeing her so bare, that's a pill ill never willingly swallow.
After she finished up and got dressed she looked as beautiful maybe even more so than before. Yet again nothing stirs inside of me which makes this even more confusing for me to accept. Do I want her back or do I just want to know that I still feel something for her, which is...
