just a young girl with an older sister along two Older and one baby brother, a mother a father, aunts, uncles, cousins... young as two tell me how that young girl can remember her brother laying in the hospital bed he was the only one in there, the room was as white as pavement, everything so clean, not understanding a word she was saying, with tears in his eyes her father says give ur brother a kiss, young as she was she didn't realise she was saying goodbye forever she looked to her father and said I don't kiss dead people, at that very point, she didn't know the reason her brother was laying there in that bed, her father holding back the tears he wanted to shed, holding in that scream anyone would understand if he shared, but he didn't for a long time, big brother was only turning 5 and instead of celebrating his 5th birthday, his breathing machine was getting turned off, 💔💔💔, declared brain dead he was gone for ever, he bare noone a last farewell or even said goodbye,his soul was gone before we knew, and God alone knows why

what happens next you could only imagine, speculate the fact this girl is only 2 what could she know, dictate the fact she remembers it all, 28yrs later she procastinates hoping to block out it all.....




and so the story continues I bet y'all wondrred what happened. well here goes nothing, that girl in the story is me I have a younger brother whom I am close with and i adore him I am sooo proud of him he is doing life right,and by right I mean right is right to th people's eyes not that there is a wrong way to live I believe everyone is individual and y'all shall embrace your differences in every way U can, anyways his got his own business going , own house ,drug and smoke free, wife and a family, surrounded by loving friends,partying nearly every weekend, but his family is mine and although he has done right I'm sure he don't go to sleep at night without asking himself, what life would of been like, what would it be like if we hadn't lost our older brother, the thoughts and questions remain what would he have looked like why did he have to die, how could god take such a innocent little boy from his family, how did out dad ever go on raising us 3 after 1 of his 4 kids were gone, our mother quicky turned to booze, who wouldn't tho right,??? and my father kept on working, I can't recall exactly but by the time I was 6 she was gone and dad was starting over with someone new later that year a little girl was born finally a baby sister too not just my older one who thinks she is too good for the world , like dude!!!I love my little sister don't get me wrong but I was only a child as young as 7 missing school cos I was jo all night with a baby, 2 weeks past after she was born gorgeous as hell but demanding too, little I know at the time but life has thrown me some curve balls and I have come to realise everything that happens don't always have an answr at least not right away baby sister ended up in hospital menengitis they say she will be lucky to survive 2.weeks every day went by wondering if this is the last time we would be with her after many years have past life has gone on and we have seen she is doing no other then proving those fuckiin. quacks wrong, we soon found out we had another sister all along she was unknown 13 yrs old is her age but how dad how did u create another life in another state without us knowing all this time ?! well that don't matter all that matters is we are up and moving from.one state to another no plans it is what it is time to show everyone who they don't know I moved to a new state with confidence noone knew who we was what we went thru I could actually be soemoen brand new, but that didn't work out too well did it ? 🙄🙄🙄to be continued....
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